Fanmail the Fourth

[idolpro]

Who: you and your adoring fan(mail)s ♥
Where: Hotel lobby
When: Day 55, evening

[ It's been pretty quiet lately, huh? Well . . . no. Every day is busy in Imeeji! You just want to relax and go home, right? Especially after going for a fun swim!

Well . . . Going home might be difficult for you. Press open on the elevators and you'll find that they open up to actual mountains of fanmail, haphazardly shoved in like jenga - if you're unlucky, you might even be literally buried in it. You can't even press the button from upstairs to go down to the lobby because the elevators are filled at max capacity. Surely they couldn't be that heavy though, right!?

Is this . . . the weight of love. . . . ?

The staircases are blocked with a couple boxes too, but nothing so obstructive that you can't push them away with a little elbow grease.

There's just . . . so much . . . . ]

Comments

[we_meet_again]

I'm pretty sure sending people unwanted kinky content counts as a bad kind.

[malignstar]

Could be worse.

[ Also glances at the dumpster ]

[we_meet_again]

Just because it can be worse doesn't make it okay by comparison.

Anyway. You didn't get anything bad this time, did you?

[malignstar]

Oh, I have my share of haters.

[we_meet_again]

Oh what? I'm surprised to hear that!

[malignstar]

People don't like people who are too happy.

[we_meet_again]

I hope you don't let them get to you!

[malignstar]

When have I ever?

[we_meet_again]

Beats me. I can't read your mind, so I have no way to know unless you tell me.

[malignstar]

Don't worry. The only one who gets to me is me.

[we_meet_again]

I wish I could say that's reassuring.

Are you doing okay? I'm worried about you.

[malignstar]

Why are you worried about me? I'm doing fine. Meeting new people, setting up dates, sharing the love of baking... Why the concern?

[we_meet_again]

When's the last time you ate?

[malignstar]

—What?

[we_meet_again]

Your rations have been piling up in the fridge since the game.

Have you been eating?

[malignstar]

Well, baking requires some tasting.

It's fine. I'm still figuring out the vegan thing.

[we_meet_again]

It's been five days, Sunshine...

Is there something I can do to help?

[malignstar]

I just can't stomach anything lately, that's all. You know, flashbacks and stuff. I figure they have to let up eventually, right?

[we_meet_again]

Do you think you'd be able to start with something easy, like soup or a fruit drink? Just a little bit at a time would be okay, as long as you start getting some calories into you.

If you're having flashbacks, the more you try to avoid them, the worse they're going to get.

[malignstar]

I've been trying to nibble the sweets... no go. The real pain in the ass is how expensive it's going to be to circumvent rations.

[we_meet_again]

If it's just a matter of points to find something your stomach can tolerate, I'm sure any of us are happy to help.

Have you tried using Cloud Nine while eating? Maybe that'll help with the flashbacks enough to get something down?

[malignstar]

I don't want you guys to spend your points on that.

And maybe. It's a worth a try. I've just never used it on myself before.

[we_meet_again]

Please give it a shot? At least as a first step, just so you don't waste away. I'm sure that things will get easier with time, so please don't give up.

And if you want to talk about stuff, I'm happy to listen, you know?

[malignstar]

[ Sighs and rubs at the back of his head ]

I'm not going to waste away. And I'm not going to give up. It's just been... difficult, you know. And now, Oni's gone...

I guess I don't know how to talk about this stuff. So it's easier not to most of the time.

[we_meet_again]

[Oni's gone...? shit]


Yeah... that was an awful experience, and I'm sure it hasn't been easy to deal with. I sympathize.

And that's... fair. If you don't want to talk about it, I shouldn't push you. I'm sorry.

Thank you for telling me, though.