Memories

[time5kip]

Who: Idols
Where: The Hotel or wherever their hearts will take them
When: 288 afternoon

[ Some of us have been FORBIDDEN from taking memories from too long and it's time to catch up ]

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[selfpreservationist]

[his head is spinning too much to really parse all of that but he trusts her to protect him so he just nods]

[420blazeit]

[ she'll bring him to something like this to set him down, keeping close, herself, as she instructs her aibou to remain nearby. ] ... [ gently runs her hand through his hair, giving him time to continue unpacking the horrible memory he just saw. ]

[selfpreservationist]

[he sits on the bench and looks around at everything as though he's seeing it for the first time, distracted]

... right. A garden.

[420blazeit]

[ hums a response and continues threading her fingers through her hair, but eventually her hand stops and moves to his shoulder and she scoots closer to him. ] Do you want me to take away from of the pain? [ she'll offer her hand to him. ]

[selfpreservationist]

[he just blinks at her]

... I don't understand.

[420blazeit]

Buddy System. If you’d like to open up your feelings and emotions to me we can do that. We’ve used it before for, uh, ...less serious things. [ like sex. ]

[selfpreservationist]

... I don't want... anyone to feel what I'm feeling right now.

[420blazeit]

...of course not, but you shouldn’t have to carry the burden on your own, Raven. I’m here to lighten the load and help. [ tugs him into her. ]

[selfpreservationist]

[he's pliant, unresisting, but not... terribly receptive, either]

Just... stay.

[420blazeit]

I’m not going anywhere, Raven. [ she just gazed out over the edge of the building. ] Do keep it in mind if things get to be too much. I can take a lot. And I’d absolutely take more for you.

[selfpreservationist]

I know. This is... different. No one... should ever have to feel that.

[420blazeit]

Not even you. [ moves her tail around him. ] I'm sorry you have to endure all that.

[selfpreservationist]

"The heart is a tumor of weakness"... perhaps that's why... he wanted to rid himself of it.

[420blazeit]

...his mind had been poisoned with all sorts of terrible thoughts. But don't think for a second that the heart is weak. It's not. It's a thing of strength. [ she reaches out for his hand, dragging it toward her chest, so he can feel the subtle and rhythmic beating of her heart. ] I know you call me your sword and your shield, but you do more for me than you realize.

[selfpreservationist]

[his fingers curl in her shirt a little, not saying anything]

[420blazeit]

You give me the strength to keep going, Raven.

[selfpreservationist]

How...? I don't... understand.

[420blazeit]

...silly bird. [ she kisses his nose. ] I had a purpose back home. I fought for the safety of my country and its people. Here, I might fight for my unit, my friends, my lover, but most importantly... you. I mentioned it [ she swallows and averts her gaze a bit because reasons!!! ] during that game, but... you fill my heart with an excess of love and I want nothing more for you to be safe, happy, and healthy. And until we reach the end together I know I have reason to keep on going...

[selfpreservationist]

... you're so... full of love, even after everything you've been through.

[420blazeit]

[ she cups the cheek furthest from her. ] I can keep the darkness at bay with the light of your love. [ she gives him a kiss. ]

[selfpreservationist]

[he leans into it, though barely kissing back]

... that almost sounds like poetry.

[420blazeit]

[ her cheeks color as she looks down in her lap. ] ah, T- Thanks. I've been trying to read a lot more poetry lately. I- I'm, uhm, n- nothing like you, of course, but I thought it'd be nice to have something to talk about together. And maybe one day I could write a poem about you.

[selfpreservationist]

You've said that before... but I really... don't think I'm worthy.

[also he'd die]

[420blazeit]

[ she just smushes a hand straight into his face. ] You don't get to decide that.

[selfpreservationist]

[smushed]

Hey...