You were in a desperate position and had no way of knowing if any of those people could or would harm you. If you hadn't been, you wouldn't have done it. I don't think it makes you a bad person or anything.
I don't know if I wouldn't. That's the thing. [ Looks down at her hands. ] Can I really say for sure, that in the heat of the moment ... if someone startled me, I wouldn't react badly? No. Not anymore.
Oh, it'd absolutely still be worth feeling bad over, it's just that if you - or honestly, any Alch - slipped in a moment, we can undo it. So that's maybe a little bit of pressure off?
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I don't know if I wouldn't. That's the thing. [ Looks down at her hands. ] Can I really say for sure, that in the heat of the moment ... if someone startled me, I wouldn't react badly? No. Not anymore.
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Still. It'd be a bad look.
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Here? Big oof. I'm proud of our non-violence, you know? Even if some people get weird about it.
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[ she hadn't thought of that ]
[ SHARP INHALE ]
... I think it'd be bad if I didn't feel bad about biting a child, even if I undid it seconds later ...
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...
Mind if I ask a favour?
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Squirt-gun me with a sleeping potion or something?
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[ a lil laugh ]
I prob'ly should talk to the others about this, but. Eugh.
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And even if they weren't soft: ew, vulnerability with people I don't know super well.