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[ that sets her back on the defense, so to speak; her smile falters a little, but not in a bad way-- only because she's flustered and a little embarrassed, but pretty clearly into it?? she laughs a bit, startled, when she's lifted, tail going a mile a minute and ears perked forward. ]

Oh--!

I do have to give it a bit of my own spin.

[she spins Cypress once more, dramatically, and then stops]

[ she twirls easily enough, settling back in close to glory as they slow to a stop. ]

... I don't think I've ever danced much like that.

Well, I usually dance with people who are pretty flashy.

[ her tail slows a little. ]

I'm not very-- flashy, that's true. My apologies, if you were disappointed.

...Ah, I just meant... that was where I learned it.

-- oh!

[ a pause ]

So-- ... it was okay, then?

...Yeah, it was fine.

...Were you worried...?

[ her tail's still wagging, but it's taken on a slightly uneasy feel, a little lower down. ]

... a little. I want to make a good impression, after all.

...Why?

[ her cheeks go a bit darker ]

Ah-- well, I just...

It's fairly selfish, but I'd like the people I'm thinking well of to think well of me, too.

...Why do you think well of me? You barely know me.

[ her tail slows to a stop, ears lowering against her hair. ]

... because we're-- getting to know each other, I thought? And so far, I've enjoyed speaking to you...?

We are getting to know each other, but we haven't done much, yet. That means there's a lot you don't know about me that you might not like, and not any particular reason I can see to want to make a good impression.

[ it's not nerves anymore; she looks more incredulous now, and fully separates from her, ears back and brow furrowed. and while she normally wouldn't say anything like this, with heightened aggression... ]

I don't see why I need to have a-- specific reason, to think someone is nice at first glance. That's what a first impression is. Things change over time-- if you need to wait until then to make a first impression, why bother at all?

You're the one who said we should get to know each other in the first place, besides; usually that sort of offer means you actually want to try befriending someone.

[She stiffens, feathers ruffling]

I said we should get to know each other, and that means we should get to know each other. Depending on what we learn, we may not be friends. I don't get along with most people.

Maybe if you didn't interrogate someone for trying to enjoy your company, you would.

[ Huffs, but settles, ears relaxing again and offering her hand. ]

... but I'm sorry for getting frustrated with you. I thought we were getting on rather well, so I'd like to continue. I would still like to get to know you, despite whatever you may think of me.

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...I don't think anything much of you yet.

[That's still kind of insulting, but her tone sounds neutral, and her feathers settle as she reaches for her hand]

And I wasn't interrogating you. I was just curious. Knowing your feelings and motivations is part of getting to know you, isn't it?

That's pretty insulting.

[ it's ok she'll say it for u. but she holds her hand anyway, grip soft, and her tail gives a little wag at the touch. ]

I think that sort of thing is normal, but phrasing it like... "why would you" when someone expresses that so far they're enjoying your company...? It makes it sound like they're an annoyance to you, or something along those lines. At least, that's how it felt.

...Isn't saying I don't know why you'd enjoy my company saying a lot more about what I think about myself than what I think about you...?

In a way, yes, but when the issue is put on me not knowing you...

Well, I'm not going to go around assuming anyone is full of self-loathing or anything without more information. I feel like that's pretty rude...? And I'm no psychiatrist, anyway.

I don't have to hate myself to know that I'm not the kind of person people are immediately drawn to.

Oh, no, of course not. But there's definitely a level of self-depreciation to that sort of thing, I think?

You haven't managed to drive me off so far, though, so probably you should give yourself a bit more credit.

I don't know what to give myself credit for if I don't know what I did that was good...

Existing, perhaps?

[ with an amused huff, her tail wagging a bit higher now. ]

It wasn't anything specific, I think. I've just thought I'd like to know you, and nothing I've seen yet has changed my mind.

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