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[featherbeaned]

Who: Idols! Monsters! Monstrous idols ...?
Where: Anywhere, everywhere
When: 298. early morning

[What are you up to?]

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[ouji4board]

[ still suuuper relaxed, maybe even more-so ]

Mmmhm.

[crossmyheartandhope]

You wanna stay like that for a while, or...?

[ouji4board]

[ holds his hands out, twisting them so they're palms up ]

You doin' okay?

[crossmyheartandhope]

Yeah. I'm doing fine.

[Takes them, careful]

Are you?

[ouji4board]

Yeah. Is that weird?

[crossmyheartandhope]

Naw. People like what they like.

We can stay put a while, if you wanna. I won't go nowhere.

[ouji4board]

It's very...peaceful, like this? If ya know what I mean. Maybe. [ laughs quietly ] I wonder if I liked this before too.

[crossmyheartandhope]

Could be.

Makes sense you'd still like it, even if you didn't remember liking it.

[ouji4board]

It's a weird sort of thought, isn't it? This whole missing memories thing makes everything like... Is this a me-before thing or a me-now thing?

[crossmyheartandhope]

Pretty sure everyone here goes through it, some.

[A beat]

Lots of people don't end up the same them no more. You know?

[ouji4board]

...It makes sense, but then, like...

I dunno. Maybe because I have brothers here? I keep thinking, like... If I end up too different, do I still count as someone they knew?

[ but also, what if it's better for them that he changes? ]

[crossmyheartandhope]

Sure you do.

Cause even if you knew them then, you know em now, too, right? You can get to know em all over again.

[ouji4board]

Wouldn't that make me someone new, then?

[ laughs, quiet. ]

Sorry, sorry. I'm totally bringing down the mood here.

[crossmyheartandhope]

Naw, it's cool.

[He's quiet for a long couple of beats]

If it helps... I don't think I'm who I was, before. I don't even think I'm who I was when I got here.

[ouji4board]

[ lightly squeezes his hands ]

It'd be super hypocritical of me to keep being like "oh no what if I'm different" but also "you're great the way you are!" at the same time, right?

[crossmyheartandhope]

Kinda sorta?

[Squeezes his hands back]

Anyway, I guess what I'm trying to say is... even if you ain't you-then, you'll be you-now. And that's still you. Y'know?

[ouji4board]

Yeah. That's fair.

...Thanks, man.

[crossmyheartandhope]

Hey. No problem.

[ouji4board]

[ tips his head back, his tail still sweeping slowly under him ]

I think I'm good, now?

[crossmyheartandhope]

Yeah? You ready to get untied?

[ouji4board]

Probably a good idea. Unless there's anything else I can do for you while I'm like this?

[crossmyheartandhope]

Naw. Think we're good.

[He takes off the blindfold, careful, then sets to work on the ropes]

[ouji4board]

[ blinks slowly a few times once it comes off ]

[crossmyheartandhope]

You doing okay?

[ouji4board]

Yeah. Better than I thought! It's weird.