imeeji_frontstage | medical/self-care live!

medical/self-care live!

Who: some cute nurses & you
Where: the lobby + wherever if you want a housecall
When: day 131, noon

[ hope everyone is resting well! or maybe keeping busy, as one does after horrible trauma. some sensitIVs are doing just that - actually, it's been a while since lucifel's called a live, hasn't it? but he's in the lobby in a nurse outfit, with nya, and possibly a few other sensitIVs who may or may not have been roped into wearing nurse outfits. it's mystery ]

Ahhh . . . Uhm, good morning, everyone -

[ somewhat nervously, or maybe self-conscious, ]

It's been a while, hasn't it? Not for any good reason either, but - in any case, we thought it would be good to have something like this again . . . that is -

Hello! This is a medical checkup Live, since we've had a rough couple of days. Uhm, if you would like to get a checkup, we'll be here in the lobby! Even if you don't feel it's necessary, we've arranged to have some comforts here, if you'd like to stop by for some self-care, instead!

[ camera swivel to the lobby which has a bunch of dakimakuras (stripped of their covers so you're not looking at lewds) and blankets, some of them raised up like someone's taken boxes to make them into tables and put a blanket over it so it looks nicer. on them are a few kettles and teapots, mismatched like someone gathered pretty much every tea dispenser he could. there are also a few trays of sweets - desserts from the café, as well as fruits to be cut up, as well as like, ice cream and Japanese snacks like purin and senbei. there is probably literally a boxtable that is entirely just mandarin oranges. ]

. . . Uhm . . .

[ with the camera back to lucifel, who looks somewhat conflicted - though overall grateful, ]

Speaking personally for a moment - it was really comforting to have people by my side, yesterday - so thank you . . . Even though I was a mess who couldn't stop crying . . .

. . . And - in the end, it made me feel a lot better, and I understood just then that crying can bring great relief! So - uhm, if you need a shoulder to cry on, or an ear to listen to your troubles, or a lap to rest your head on, or someone to hug or wrestle to get rid of stress - well, I don't know if we're all able to do that here but we'll do our best to help you how we can!

[ and he gives an earnest smile, there ]

I'm still - uhm, learning . . . quite a lot of things, so this is the best I could think of for "self care", but if you have an idea for the future, I'd be most grateful to know it!

[ then, a beat ]

Ahh, but it's understandable that you might not want to relax around some people, so - well - for this reason, we decided against visiting every dorm like we did before, but -

If you'd like one of us to make a housecall to your dorm instead, then please send a text to your preferred healer on duty, and we'll be on the way! If you really can't tolerate any of us, then . . . well, it would be best to get as many points as you can, since this last game was really bad for scars, but - well, in any case, we'll do our best to stay out of your way, so please let us know in advance as well, or otherwise spend some time outside of the lobby, please! We've made a border -

[ with a gesture to the line of pillows where all dakimakura and blanket and foodnonsense stops ]

- for you to have a clear walkway, so please bear with our intrusion for the next couple of hours!

[ cheerily. ok lucifel signing off ]

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The real one is a lot better.

[just going to flop down in the tent tbh]

...What's there to talk about?

[ sitting down near him - closer to his head, so he can pet his hair ]

Mmm . . . If you have unresolved feelings about it, or otherwise if you feel troubled by it . . . inconvenienced, or upset, or something like that . . .

[ pet ]

Thinking on it, I feel like I'm not very good at listening to Avenger's troubles, so I wonder if I should make more of an effort here, you know?

[closes his eyes and makes a pleased little noise at the petting]

...I don't get upset a lot. The game sucked, but I'm not troubled over it or anything.

Edited 2019-06-27 00:25 (UTC)

Ah, so it's your constitution.

[ that is, he doesn't talk a lot because he just doesn't get upset a lot ]

Mm, then, is there something you're troubled over?

[ the pettings will continue indefinitely ]

[i'm slowly dying and my girlfriend is kind of crazy because her memories are really fucked up and apparently now i might be marrying both her and you and if i fuck this up you'll kill me and i'm pretty sure my unit hates me now because of stupid shit i said in the game and i keep having cannibalism nightmares]

Ehh. Not really.

[ oh my god you fuckhead you don't HAVE to marry me!!!! ]

Then, what's on your mind?

[hm don't i

he considers continuing to be evasive, but.

he's honest about this stuff with dia and req, isn't he?

and if he's going to be together with lucifel, maybe he does need to start being open with him]

Half my unit is pissed off at me.

[ pausing, briefly surprised before he resumes petting ]

. . . Because of the game, or something else?

The game. It was... we had the psionics thing, right? Made it hard to think straight.

And because of the game before that, and... well, I was already not doing great?

So I got really pushy about helping pep!pep! and said protecting Sunrise was more important than protecting ☆ZRAEL.

Ah.

[ ( o_o) it just made me decide to deliberately manipulate things so that my unit would have a greater chance of dying for the sake of someone else being protected better

but, ]

. . . You weren't doing well before then?

[two kinds of people,]

...I was feeling like shit because of what I did to you. And I was thinking something like... "If I don't get to be with Ruler anymore, I need to hold on to Sunrise even tighter."

[ (o_o ) ]

. . . Oh.

[ . . .

oh right that was

ok

right. god. christ. ok ]

. . . Mmm, and she was playing, too. I'm sure that made it worse - with the psionics.

Yeah.

It's... obviously she's always important, she's my girlfriend and my Master. But she's made it clear she doesn't want me to die, and putting ourselves first is how my unit's always played? So normally I wouldn't make it an issue of who's more important.

But there and then it was just... I couldn't think. So.

Mmmh.

[ stroking his hair away from his face for a moment, quiet - before he shifts to lay down next to him properly, so he can prop one elbow up. just to be closer, just to look at him more closely ]

. . . I'm sure it was only made worse because they were also in the same situation as you, right?

Mm.

Sunrise asked for our help directly.

But we couldn't do a trade, so the others didn't want to do it. Didn't help that I'd only just said not to help future is now for that reason.

So Maki and Eater got mad at me for that, and then I said the thing about Sunrise being more important, and Ashley and Req took that real badly.

[ hindbrain lucifel: marking man eater down for "thinks of future is now as important or otherwise has reason for getting angry here (not particularly a stellar-presenting person so he's either a secret soft or he's got someone important there)"

frontbrain lucifel: oh no :( ]

. . . It's really hard, not being able to directly help . . . Having to leave it for someone else to do it, when you can't trust anyone, is difficult, too.

[ source: I live this every single day of my life ]

You haven't spoken to any of them since the game ended?

[hindbrain lucifel please, it's not like some big secret that man eater has a thing for intensity]

...I talked to Req and Maki yesterday. Req's okay, I think? It's hard to tell with her because she just tries to make everyone else happy. But Maki got real pissy.

[ he cannot help himself ]

Ah - it got worse with her?

Maybe? I really can't tell. But when I was trying to explain that I only said that shit because of the brainworms, she started saying I was making excuses or whatever.

. . . Haah.

Perhaps she's still feeling sensitive over the matter. In that case, it's difficult to try to convince her . . .

Though - shouldn't your history be proof enough? If you don't normally argue for it, then . . .

Ah, though she probably hasn't seen that as much, has she?

She should've by now.

[shrug]

She's a weird one. I have no idea what she's thinking pretty much any of the time.

Mmm.

My understanding is much more limited, so I could not help. To me, she seems as if a cornered and wounded animal, desperate to keep that which she treasures close to her - but I must say that her Live was, in truth, my first real impression of her as a person at all.

Still, at the very least it seems as though she is a person largely motivated by emotion. Then, it may be better to approach her when the iron of her anger has cooled - when she has had the time to lick her wounds and has found stable footing, again.

...Yeah. You're probably right.

[ idly, thoughtfully ]

Even if she holds this against you, you need only dismiss her claims with your actions, in any case. Game after game - if, even after time, she does not come to believe you, then is that not her own flaw for being blind? Is that not her own fault for not being willing to know you?

Edited 2019-06-27 15:15 (UTC)

Mmh. Guess we'll just have to see how that goes.

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