imeeji_frontstage | medical/self-care live!

medical/self-care live!

Who: some cute nurses & you
Where: the lobby + wherever if you want a housecall
When: day 131, noon

[ hope everyone is resting well! or maybe keeping busy, as one does after horrible trauma. some sensitIVs are doing just that - actually, it's been a while since lucifel's called a live, hasn't it? but he's in the lobby in a nurse outfit, with nya, and possibly a few other sensitIVs who may or may not have been roped into wearing nurse outfits. it's mystery ]

Ahhh . . . Uhm, good morning, everyone -

[ somewhat nervously, or maybe self-conscious, ]

It's been a while, hasn't it? Not for any good reason either, but - in any case, we thought it would be good to have something like this again . . . that is -

Hello! This is a medical checkup Live, since we've had a rough couple of days. Uhm, if you would like to get a checkup, we'll be here in the lobby! Even if you don't feel it's necessary, we've arranged to have some comforts here, if you'd like to stop by for some self-care, instead!

[ camera swivel to the lobby which has a bunch of dakimakuras (stripped of their covers so you're not looking at lewds) and blankets, some of them raised up like someone's taken boxes to make them into tables and put a blanket over it so it looks nicer. on them are a few kettles and teapots, mismatched like someone gathered pretty much every tea dispenser he could. there are also a few trays of sweets - desserts from the café, as well as fruits to be cut up, as well as like, ice cream and Japanese snacks like purin and senbei. there is probably literally a boxtable that is entirely just mandarin oranges. ]

. . . Uhm . . .

[ with the camera back to lucifel, who looks somewhat conflicted - though overall grateful, ]

Speaking personally for a moment - it was really comforting to have people by my side, yesterday - so thank you . . . Even though I was a mess who couldn't stop crying . . .

. . . And - in the end, it made me feel a lot better, and I understood just then that crying can bring great relief! So - uhm, if you need a shoulder to cry on, or an ear to listen to your troubles, or a lap to rest your head on, or someone to hug or wrestle to get rid of stress - well, I don't know if we're all able to do that here but we'll do our best to help you how we can!

[ and he gives an earnest smile, there ]

I'm still - uhm, learning . . . quite a lot of things, so this is the best I could think of for "self care", but if you have an idea for the future, I'd be most grateful to know it!

[ then, a beat ]

Ahh, but it's understandable that you might not want to relax around some people, so - well - for this reason, we decided against visiting every dorm like we did before, but -

If you'd like one of us to make a housecall to your dorm instead, then please send a text to your preferred healer on duty, and we'll be on the way! If you really can't tolerate any of us, then . . . well, it would be best to get as many points as you can, since this last game was really bad for scars, but - well, in any case, we'll do our best to stay out of your way, so please let us know in advance as well, or otherwise spend some time outside of the lobby, please! We've made a border -

[ with a gesture to the line of pillows where all dakimakura and blanket and foodnonsense stops ]

- for you to have a clear walkway, so please bear with our intrusion for the next couple of hours!

[ cheerily. ok lucifel signing off ]

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[

very, carefully pats, his shoulder,]

Ruler. The last time you had a wedding, it went fine. Remember?

That was a game so of course nearly all the preparation work was already accounted for! Besides that, I was spending the entire time thinking about how best to kill myself and I don't even remember what the cake tasted like because I was crying too much! Also!

Also!!!

That game was horrible, still! I'm happy to be married to Dia-sama and Whisky-san now but before the happy ending that was easily the worst thing that could happen to me! Seriously, I had seriously thought about asking you to just kill me back then!!

I'm starting to get the feeling that we should definitely not do a wedding.

[ head => squishy cuddletent floor ]

. . .

. . . . . . Uuugh . . .

[ whine ]

. . . . . . . . . . . . I'll still do it . . .

No . . .

It's more like . . .

Part of me still really wants to do it . . . . . .

If only . . . If only so that I can do it right this time . . . Without crying . . .

My heart is torn on the matter . . . . . . . . . . . . Or more like, even after all this time, that person's memory still feels like my own . . . . . . . . Just how do I defeat this ghost . . . . . .

...Not like I'd know.

I know . . .

- but. Aahhh, my point is -

My point is, I love you enough. I really, really, really really love you, so if you want to, it's fine. If you don't want to, though, don't make yourself do it . . . Sorry, this wasn't meant to be about me. . .

It's not like I mind things being about you. I wanna know how you feel.

I know . . . But, I want the same from you, too . . .

[ with a little huff ]

...How much of the same? Are you hoping to hear about my personal trauma?

[teasing, but there's the slightest hint of an edge to his tone]

I want everything of yours.

[ moving to kiss his jaw, now ]

But what I want is unreasonable. What I hope for, ultimately, is to alleviate your burdens, if even just by a little bit. So, if it's just a complaint about how your shoes are untied, or your personal trauma, or a worry about the future, or anything . . . anything, anything.

. . . Even if you don't tell me anything, at least find some comfort in me.

...

I don't... really know how.

. . . Mmm.

[ with a slow nod ]

At all, or with me?

The kinds of things I've told you in the past, the kinds of things I've let you see... that's already more than I've given anyone else.

But it's hard.

Mm. So -

[ thoughtfully ]

. . . I won't ask you about it anymore, then. When you want to speak, you'll speak. That's how it's always been, mm?

[ then, shifting a little to lie down more on him ]

So, let's talk about things you like instead. Or, we could watch movies, or do something else . . .

[ with a pause ]

You were saying, you prefer private time more than public time. Is there a particular reason why?

[one obstacle avoided

but more immediately appear]

...I don't like crowds. Being around a lot of people gets uncomfortable.

Too stifling?

Kinda. It reminds me of how stifled I am here.

Aah. Mm, that's understandable - I can't say I don't feel stifled, myself.

I assume it's for different reasons, though.

Well . . .

[ considering that for a moment before giving a shrug ]

Perhaps? Shall I ask why, then, that you feel stifled?

Seeing a bunch of people in the same place, I just start thinking about how much I wanna kill them.

[ . . . hairpet ]

It isn't the same when you're just with me?

Mmh. It's kinda hard to put into words, but... to begin with, it's humanity as a whole that I hate, rather than any individual? So the more of them there are in one place, the more I feel it?

Mmm. It is different, it seems.

[ idk i just feel such resentment and disappointment in all of them that i feel like i need to take away their toys aka their bodies and free will ]

Though, then this city is hardly offensive in comparison to the Tokyo of Earth. That place is disgustingly filled to the brim with humans.

[two kinds of people,]

Hah, don't even remind me. Just Fuyuki was bad enough.

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