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Who: BAD END = DUMB END and others
When: post-game
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[SO.

THAT SUCKED.

THAT REALLY REALLY SUCKED.

TIME TO FLOP INTO OUR SUCKY DORMS AFTER A SUCKY GAME.

I GUESS PEOPLE CAN COME OVER TO... Y'KNOW... IF THEY WANNA.]

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....I don't care about the loss of trust, either. I care that we hurt them. I care that nothing we can do can ever make up for the fact that we hurt them, permanently.

Yeah.... I know. Me too.

[The guilt is never going to go away.]

[ Never, ever. It lives here now. ]

This.... isn't.... what I....

[ Sanguine blinks suddenly, several times and very rapidly. He takes in a deep, shaky breath and expels it slowly. ]

That doesn't really matter, though. We'll. We'll figure this out.

Well... We'll at least do our best.

[Not the most comforting. He takes a deep breath.]

Just keep in mind you aren't alone, okay? We share this equally.

[ Sanguine starts blinking rapidly again, turns his head away. ]

...I know. Thanks.

[Reaches up and, gently, pets his head.]

We'll figure this out, we're not helpless, we screwed up but that doesn't make you a bad person Sanguine. We're all flawed.

[ It's too late, he had already suspected he was a bad person— this just proved it. ]

I know we'll figure it out. It'll take time, but we'll get there.

[ The rest of that, he's ignoring. ]

You should listen to everything I say, you know, not just the parts you agree with.

....You ever looked at my profile?

[ It's related, honestly. ]

You ever look at mine? We're not exactly a crew of upstanding citizens. But we probably have our circumstances.

....I haven't glanced at profiles since the first day I woke up.

[ IF HE'S BEING HONEST. ]

My point is, I'll be fine. Honestly, I'm more worried about you and Boss than I am myself.

Me?

[He gets Boss and not being worried about Nine Nine but??]

You had friends there, right? At least, you've been very social. So of course I'd be worried how you're taking this.

I'm...

[What does he say. He's not actually fine.]

I don't know. I'm scared I've ruined what friendships I've started.

I can't say for sure that you haven't. But maybe... try to reach out to them in a day or two. Give them time. Hopefully.... hopefully, it will be salvageable.

[Smiles a little, but it's... He's exhausted.]

Yeah. Hopefully.

[ He might reach for Phoenix if he were better at physical affection. As it is, he just gives the other guy a weak smile of his own. ]

You're a good person... They'll probably understand.

Understanding... Well. I hope.

[It's not the same as trust or forgiveness but NOT LIKE WE DESERVE THOSE EH SANGUINE.]

[ THEY DEFINITELY DON'T AND THAT'S WHY HE AVOIDED THE WORD. ]

I'll hope for you, too. I imagine.... it would be painful to lose those friendships, even if they're new.