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Who: BAD END = DUMB END and others
When: post-game
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[SO.

THAT SUCKED.

THAT REALLY REALLY SUCKED.

TIME TO FLOP INTO OUR SUCKY DORMS AFTER A SUCKY GAME.

I GUESS PEOPLE CAN COME OVER TO... Y'KNOW... IF THEY WANNA.]

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....Well, talk to me more.

[ That earns a small, soft smile out of Sanguine. ]

You're just a really sincere guy, aren't you?....Well, I can try.

Hey, I know how to joke around...

I didn't think you couldn't. It's just, you have this feeling you give off.... It puts me at ease.

Ah.... I'm glad. You're not that different though you know? Easy to get along with.

Am I? ...Well, it's not like I want to be difficult. I'll take it.

You are. Quiet can be pretty soothing.

Thanks.

[ This time, he does lean against Phoenix, just a little bit. ]

...Thanks.

[Gently gives him a hug.]

You too, Sanguine.

[ He does not deserve hugs??? But he'll accept it anyway, just leaning in and trying not to leak out of his eyes. He mostly succeeds at that, but it's a near thing. ]

[Patting his head while he hugs him.]

It's okay to cry.

[ He shakes his head slightly. ]

I'm not going to cry.

[ He absolutely refuses to let himself. ]

Sanguine...

[ He attempts to smile. It's bad, he's no AlcheME and sucks at fronting. ]

Don't worry about me. Just take care of yourself. You're newer than the rest of us, so this has to be that much harder for you.

[Pokes him in the cheek.]

That's the saddest smile I've ever seen, Sanguine.

You have amnesia, that's not saying much.

[ His hand fidgets at his side. ]

I mean it, though. Please take care of yourself.

I feel the same about you, you know? I don't want you to be keeping it in.

I'm fine. [ A beat, and then: ] I'll be fine. So you can stop worrying about me. I'm upset now, but I'll get over myself.

It's not about getting over yourself, or anything.

[ Isn't it, though? ]

I'll be fine.

[ He pulls away from Phoenix. ]

....I'm not very good company right now, I'm sorry. I should probably go.

Sanguine...

[Catching his sleeve.]

We all feel guilty. We all messed up. At least with me, you don't have to pretend you're fine.

[ He doesn't look at Phoenix as he answers. ]

....I need to be fine. I can't, it's.... I don't. Have..........

[ He shakes his head. ]

I need to be fine, okay?

It's not like I don't understand that feeling... I feel the same. But at the same time... You're not. I'm not either. I don't know what to do about it or how to make it better, but at least we can not lie to each other.

[ Okay, but what if his problem is that he doesn't feel like he has the right to be as sad, unhappy, and guilty as his unitmates?

He doesn't say any of that, though. He takes a deep breath and expels it a little more harshly than he intended— a side effect of trying not to cry. ]

I'm not, I'm not trying to lie. I just. I need to be fine. I need to be.

What the hell kind of logic is that Sanguine?

[Tugs on him, bonks their heads together.]

Don't... Don't be an idiot. Don't go confusing want with need. We're all beating ourselves up, we all want to be fine, but we did this together, we're all in this together.