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[WHATEVER! SHOW OFF!

... anyway, Joker is definitely going to choke out, but that's fine. it just means inhaled too much and will in fact getting hit harder faster maybe]

[HE PROBABLY NEEDS IT]

[just. gonna pat his back while he chokes]

[incentive to flop on top of double, though.

making a kind of annoyed noise because HE TRIED. NOT TO CHOKE?]

[HE CAN DO THAT IF HE WANTS]

Happens to the best of us the very first time.

[he thinks? he doesn't actually know and-or remember but that seems about right]

Does it...?

[in fact, flopping on double is a good idea because... whoa. whoa, dude.

...

maybe something of a nervous-sounding snicker thing escapes him because whoooa...]

[whoa hello]

[. . . just gonna. pat the back of his head]

Hitting you hard and fast already?

Mm.

[letting his fingers pick at Mars's shirt because. texture. fascinating.]

It's...

[and then he trails off because whoa. words and their meanings when they're placed in certain orders and things he only thinks about when he's actively knowingly wearing a mask and who said thoughts were allowed to go by that quick, anyway?!]

... words suck.

[says it like he's somewhere between mystified and offended]

[relaxing a bit himself as the high hits him, but he's a lot calmer and less loopy about it b/c of his (not-yet-remembered) experiences, so. continues patting Joker's head]

Yeah.

[WORDS SUPER SUCK]

I've got Buddy Bond.

[for when words fail]

[... god.

Buddy Bond.

the thought of all those emotions going on and debating if overloading himself further will actually help or not--and then of course thoughts that he actually has an ability that can be used to overload emotions and--]

Maybe...

[slides an arm around Joker's waist, settling at the small of his back]

Up to you.

... just thinking 'bout... the upgrades to Bad End's stuff.

[awkward. laugh?]

It's... also emotion based.

Upgrades?

[guess who hasn't read about the upgrades b/c he doesn't read anything he doesn't have to read]

What's that mean?

One of our abilities... was reading disagreement with people? But now we can... tell what people are currently feeling.

And our other ability used to be... amplifying bad emotions? But now it's... amplify current felt emotions.

It's tempting. A lot.

[VERY. TEMPTING, IN FACT.]

. . . like Buddy Bond, only one-sided.

Hey. . . you're copying us.

[GRUMPS]

You should do it.

[uh]

[goooooood Mars pls.]

Think so?

[SO. WHAT EMOTIONS YOU GOT, BUDDY?]

[RIGHT NOW??]

[he's just extremely relaxed and chill, which is like. a rarity for Mars]

[also gonna pat Joker's head and activate Buddy Bond TO FEEL WHAT JOKER IS FEELING but also so Joker gets his own feelings IN STEREO]

[whoa. stereo.

but also that's not really much to play with, so there's some curiosity, interest directed at Mars because uh. look.

behind that, though, there's the fatigue and emotional wear that feels not great, the guilt and vengeful anger towards Shido... it's just kind of always there as background noise now

but once he adjusts to Buddy Bond being active, he blinks and settles into the comfy warmth of Mars's chill while he lets a hand run across his side with a bit of a laugh]

You make me feel like a mess.

[. . . ah. hi]

[there's a hand running across his side and Mars blinks, a flicker of confusion appearing on Mars's end of the bond. and then there's a bit of fluster at the clear interest, and Mars shifts to shove one of his hands into Joker's face]

[and behind all of that, there's like. mmmmaybe a small bit of. concern, for that guilt and vengeful anger and fatigue and emotional wear. DON'T CALL HIM OUT ON IT]

You feel like a mess, but I dunno if that's all my fault.

[jkfh he actually isn't put off by the hand in his face, instead yanking on Mars' chill and relaxedness to bring that up to lazy contentment--fluster is cute but not if it's going to get Mars bolting from him.

then he's going to make a point to adjust his face so Mars's hand isn't completely over it, fondness creeping up in response to the concern.]

It's not. You're just making easier to see it.

[oh. . . that's nice. and even knowing the amplification is Joker doesn't send any bolts of panic through Mars, because Joker isn't in his head giving him memories or emotions he isn't already feeling, so. it's all him, and that's. . . that's fine]

[sinks a little into the mattress, his hand falling away as he allows the lazy contentment to envelop them both. feeling this relaxed means he loosens up on trying to hide his concern, too]

[. . .]

[a tiny flicker of fondness from Mars's end echoes Joker's]

. . . well, that's kinda what Buddy Bond is for. I think.

Edited 2018-12-31 00:42 (UTC)

[there is maybe... a little bit of a thrill at being able to see the effect. he's... happy? to be helping Mars feel more comfortable. it's nice?

there's also some of that just by feeling the answering fondness, the bad feelings fading back a little--still background noise but not his immediate focus.]

I guess so.

[... no, can't help it. nudging the flicker of fondness into solid fondness. mutual fondness is nice?]

Edited 2018-12-31 00:52 (UTC)

[whoa]

[he definitely feels it solidly now, but with those solid feelings comes a bit more fluster. not enough to get him to pull away, just]

Hey--

[hey!1]

D. . . don't make this hard on me.

[needs a bit more chill, you say?]

I won't. That's as far as I'll go there.

[he doesn't want to push it, just wanted them... a bit more on the same page?

but he does reach up to touch Mars's face, trying to feel reassuring. he won't push it, though there's some disappointment, there's respect about that being the limit there.

it's not like he'd want to artificially crank it up past that, anyway. other things, though... maybe.]

[aha]

[the respect is actually followed by a well of deep appreciation, and the fondness amplifies all on its own, probably also thanks to the gentle touch against his cheek]

[a light flicker of longing, and--]

[with a sharp exhale, Mars closes his eyes and reaches out for those relaxed chill feelings again, trying to focus on them and use them to drown out everything else]

[... ah.

that longing has a echo from Joker, back in the far back where he stashes some old pains and bad, dark feelings--a sense of loneliness, deep and probably noticeably always present as well. hurt from the day's earlier bullshit bubbling up again

but then he settles back into the relaxed feelings with Mars, stretches up to plant a kiss on his chin, hand remaining on his face.]