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[vaguely put-off noise but he lets go of those feelings, giving a quick simple kiss against his throat in apology before settling against him again.]

[vague disappointment on his end, coupled by a bit of longing. . .]

. . . sorry.

[Joker is involved with people. he can't go any further than this]

This is fine. But just this.

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[noooo shhh, hands going up to pet his hair]

Don't apologize.

I told you... I'm not great at this.

[someone here needs to remember to put on the brakes.]

I'll leave off.

[so he doesn't push it more. like an idiot.]

You're a lot better at it than I am.

[what if part of him doesn't want brakes tho!1]

I keep spooking every time I'm around Fox and Prim.

[and Maki. but that seems like a bad one to bring up right now]

I meant not great at keeping in mind some things.

[which you are clearly more conscientious of.

pats at his cheek, fond amusement coloring the motion.]

You're shy. And you don't wanna get hurt. That's fair.

[a low growl]

I'm not shy.

[he just. spooks easily. which, really, is kind of the same thing]

[cute, tho?]

Uh huh...

[teasing tho]

[PATS JOKER'S CHEEKS WITH HIS HANDS, a small bit of irritation flickering into the bond. but it's huffy irritation, not serious irritation]

Relationships are dumb, and I don't wanna bother with them, and most everyone is involved with someone anyway, and I'm not gonna get between them and the people they liked long before I got here.

There's no way you'd get between me and A.

... but still need to talk those kinds of things out with him later.

[immediately]

No. You don't have to do that. Nothing's going to happen.

[except cuddling and saucy neck kisses]

Besides. . . you said he was the jealous and insecure type.

[do u really think he'd take it well??]

I do have to do that.

Not for you. For me and him.

[. . . . . . . . . oh]

[you guys and your COMMUNICATION]

Yeah. . .

[Maki said the same thing to him after the mistletoe game, after all]

... I'm not going to go about it the way Maki did, though.

Because... I don't think being boyfriends is the problem between us, if there ever is one.

It's his controlling behavior.

But after this... I think I have some leverage to establish some things... and get him to understand.

["if there even is one," Joker says, about the boyfriend who shot him in the head]

[a hint of skepticism, quashed quickly]

. . . good luck.

[CURRENT. ISSUES.

that's a whole different thing and has to do with manipulation from an authority figure who is a shithead anyway.]

Thanks.

[. . . and in that moment, there's more longing and a hint of loneliness from Mars's end. a bit of fear of connections, of relationships, of getting hurt when people pull away or die or lose interest in him or prefer Joker or someone else over him or simply move on or--]

[he digs the heel of his palm into one eye and grumps, before tightening his grip on Joker's back as he attempts to shove those emotions aside and reach for that relaxed chill again]

-- hit me again. Amplify the good.

[he wants to go back to that nice boneless feeling and stop getting distracted by the things that suck]

[there's strong empathy for those feelings, but he also understands the want to just... not deal with those things.

so first thing is he's going to pull those relaxed and chill feelings up 90%--at least to the point before sleep might be tempting.

and then he's going to kiss at Mars' neck again, largely to see if he can get some feeling of pleasure or something else nice rather than lustful interest--which he's willing to crack up to match with the contentment.

surely this is a good mix of good feelings to have amped]

[oh god this kind of high is so much better than just taking a hit off of a joint. Mars sucks in a deep breath and lets it out deeply, burrowing into the emotion as deeply as he can, reaching out to Joker yet again to take him down with him]

[this time, the kiss against his neck elicits not interest but contentment. the bone deep kind someone might feel after getting a nice relaxing massage, or something similar]

[curls his fingers into Joker's hair and lets out a pleased sigh of his own]

[how is that supposed to discourage him from leaving more lazy kisses against his neck? it's impossible.

but he at least is letting himself get enveloped by the deep relaxation, not really looking for much of anything in his actions now, just simple taking comfort]

[well, since Joker is paying very nice attention to his neck, he might find himself stumbling upon a day-old bite mark around the juncture where Mars's neck meets his shoulder. SUSPICIOUS. . .]

[but Mars is perfectly content to bask in this level of attention, now that they're on the same page and there's no danger of it escalating into something else. thought he does, at some point, shift a little bit to reach for the still smoking joint. probably for another hit]

[hhhmmm... very suspicious.

which is why he's going to be poking at it a bit. kissing and nipping while making a curious sound? if there's fuss, there's always It's Fine to amp up... that's fine, right?]

[a sharp inhale, cracking one eye open as he takes another drag]

. . . what?

[mmmnn preemptively gonna nudge that acceptance a smidge--it's fine, Joker's not going to push it beyond... well... focusing attention on that spot. and that's fine, right?]

A bite?

[snort]

Fox.

[that's all he says as he rests his hand against his forehead, eyes slipping shut again. he doesn't resist the acceptance being ramped up, and it's followed with a bit of encouragement. do what you wish with it, Joker]

Ah.

[like that explains it all. because it kinda does. Joker established some boundaries with Fox during the kissing game so, even though the kiss was still... intense. there was no biting involved.

... maybe... a hint of... wishing there had been? maybe.

but then hes pushing that aside in favor of carefully mouthing at the bite, tongue moving over the bruising before he bites gently down at the edge of it, just a bit. this is fine, though? it's just kissing at the neck still...]