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Did you... want that?

Like, was the reason why you wanted to fight specifically because you wanted to eat someone?

Of course not!

[ There's a touch of hysteria in his tone as he jolts forward.

He covers his eyes with one hand as he leans back again and sucks in deep, shuddering breaths. ]

But... in the thick of it... things stop making sense. It becomes easier and easier to just tear at what's in front of you. Easier to forget the person you're fighting... is a person. And when they stop fighting... it's easier to forget... they're more than just... meat.

And... I don't know how much of that was... the monster.

Or me.

I... really don't know if that game was a very good metric to compare yourself to. Literally one hundred percent of those matches resulted in someone getting eaten. Some people were even doing it an extra-curricular fashion between rounds.

I think it might be safe to assume it wasn't just you. The game did something to our heads.

Edited 2018-10-28 03:54 (UTC)

[ Presses harder against his eyes, as his voice gets huskier ]

I know. I keep telling myself that. It makes sense. It probably happened to everyone. It's just the stupid Producers...

[ There's a long pause ]

But even if all that's true, how do I know that a part of me didn't take advantage of it? I don't.

I mean... I gguuueeesss?

But if we know for a fact that our thoughts were messed with -- and we do -- then I don't even know if there's any way to draw meaningful conclusions from anything that happened during the game. You can only judge yourself by who you are when you're ...yourself, you know?

Yeah...

[ Pulls away his hand again ]

Anyway, that's the only time so far.

Well, that's a pretty good record, then. If it had to take the Producers tampering with your brain you to make you feel that way, and it was still only in the heat of the moment, you're probably doing pretty good.

I hope so. I don't think I could pull off the Dark Overlord look.

Well not with that attitude.

[ Snickers ]

I think I'll stick with my school outfits and trash punk.

I think that suits you better, anyway.

Oh, so you have been looking~? Victorian's kind of stuffy for me.

Hmm yeah, not sure I can picture you in ruffles and lace. Doesn't seem like your style.

Sounds itchy.

It's probably hard to parkour with an outfit like that, too.

Oh, in that case, I'd just take my shirt off.

Hmm. I guess that works. In which case, I suppose it doesn't even matter what unit clothes you have.

True. I could always just ran around shirtless all day. Has anyone tried that yet?

Uhhhh if they have, I haven't seen it?

I think the closest might be the loud Zrael guy, but even he hasn't been completely shirtless... that I've seen.

Pharaoh needs to keep his shirt on or half the idols might faint.

Pharaoh? Is that his name?

Yep! There's a sun symbol in there somewhere, but I have no idea how to pronounce it yet.

Don't worry, I'm sure someone from Zrael will correct you until you get it right.

That's the worst part.

Anyway, aside from him, I haven't seen anyone running around with their chest hanging out, so perma-topless might be a niche that still hasn't been filled yet, if you're considering it.

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