imeeji_frontstage | (it's gonna rain tonight)

[ Aliza's been un-evil and off her chains for a whole five minutes before being pulled into this, so if she looks fucking awful that's why. Also she's had no blood in six days and it shows: she's pale, shaky, dull. ]

[ Seeing Caeli's name on the "patient" list made her sick, and so did sending the pep!WC team any "remedies", mild though they seemed in comparison to others. Guilt might have made her slink away without approaching him, but she owes him some thanks and needs to have a frank discussion about what to do with her when she loses her damn mind. ]

I'm so glad your group won.

Alizarin. [ he's quick to reach out and set a hand on her shoulder, assuming she lets him. ] I'm glad to see that you won too. [ their team had also send zrael/hss mild remedies the second and third round once they had figured out what a specific one had done. ] Are you alright?

[ She rests a hand over his, hoping it'll help steady her, but she wavers on her feet. ]

They practically took me straight from my chains to helplessly watching Doctor in that fishbowl. So no, not really.

[ he reaches to take her other hand, steadying her. ]

I imagine you're going to want to join him at Heart Soldier to rest then, but... if you're interested in hanging out for a little bit perhaps you could stop by Wild City for a few hours.

[ a ghost of a smile flickers on her face, and she nods. As if she'll be going anywhere except into an anemic coma. ]

That sounds nice. Being in your dorm is like being outside...

[ Shaking her head a little and trying to blink away the glazed over look in her eyes ]

I'm sorry for all the trouble before. For everything I caused.

I did get an outdoor bar too, and I'm in the mood for a drink, so... [ he's interested in getting shit faced, tbh. but he can hold off if that makes her uncomfortable. he's just so fucken tired for a lot of different reasons. ] Don't apologize. Shit happens, and it's not like we can really control a lot of it.

[ why would getting shitfaced bother her that sounds amazing she'll take seven ]

God, yes. Make it fifty drinks and you've got a deal.

Maybe once we've had a few would be a better time to get into it, but I'm going to try to at least control one thing. I'm not spending five days chained to a wall again.

[ he doesn't know if she'd be bothered by him drinking himself into a coma would bother her, but definitely good to know that it wouldn't because it's absolutely what he plans to do. ]

How about fifty one.

That's fine. Text me when you're feeling up for it. I'm not going to be doing anything but that, so... you can tag in anytime.

[ She actually smiles. That sounds so much better than wallowing sober. ]

As many as possible. I can't get drunk without a lot of effort. Although it might be easier when I'm this drained.

[ she's too exhausted for a filter ]

As soon as I get done collapsing I'll come bother you. I think Doctor's going to give me a quick transfusion. [ A transfusion, not drinking blood directly. That's the point she's at. Aka really really bad. ]

Same. We drink liquor like most people drink water back home, so it takes a lot to make a guy like me drunk. I look forward to trying to get shitfaced with you.

And take all the time you need to get refreshed. Oh, and you'll have a chance to see our reception room too. I think you'll like it.

[ Caeli are you basically from Russia ]

We can only try our hardest. And occasionally make a game or contest out of it if the mood suits.

-- Doctor's going to want to stick close, is it okay if he comes along? At least for a while. [ she loves Doctor dearly but they have an agreement that he leaves her to her less than healthy coping mechanisms as long as she's taken care of. ] He's a lot of fun if I can get him to stop fussing.

[ snezhnaya is basically fantasy russia. ]

We can take shots and build pyramids out of the glasses. [ clearly the best thing to do when you're one your way to getting drunk... building things with glass. ]

Yeah that's fine. Maybe he'll even have a drink or two. Or he can be the designated zoning regulator.

With as competitive as we can get, they'll be cathedrals before long. [ She's game if he is. ]

He'll have a few, I'm sure. This week was almost as awful for him as for me. And he --

[ she pauses as her knees almost buckle. Oops. ]

Sorry. I definitely need some blood first.

[ his grip on her tightens and he tugs her close, supporting her completely, so she doesn't drop. ] Completely understandable after everything you've been through.

... [ he's going to scoop her up in a princess carry. ] I know you normally don't like this sort of thing, but I don't want you to hurt yourself falling. [ time to find doctor. ]

[ Scooped! ]

You're right, but I'll take being weak and pathetic over hurting people I love.

[ Accidentally confessing that she's short of blood on purpose? Maybe. But it's also partly that she had about ten minutes between getting unchained and yanked into this shitty game. ]

...do you want to tell me what happened after I left? I didn't stick around, and it seemed like things went downhill almost immediately. I probably shouldn't have left, but... I wasn't exactly right in the head.

Speaking of which, I don't want you blaming yourself for what happened following our fight. You didn't do anything. And the fight was great. I'm just... not the same person I should be thanks to this awful place.

[ ...She should know better to try and hide things, they're too much alike. ]

I tried to break out again, I was hurting myself. So Lumine chained me up, but not before I hurt her really badly. ...I'm sorry, I never would have done it in my right mind.

[ She sort of expects that he'll want to drop her on her ass for that, or something. She knows that Lumine means a lot to him. ]

I don't want that to happen to you again, that's all. [ Narrator: that is so not all. ] You warned me that breaking your mask would be dangerous, and I didn't listen.

...you don't have to apologize. I get it, believe me. I hope you know I would have never attacked Alala in my right mind, but sometimes we just kind of... lose it. It happens and it sucks, but we can only do what we can to avoid these kinds of things, you know? It's not easy, never is, but...

Next time...

If there's a next time will you let me stay with you? If you have some company maybe being locked in a room won't be so bad.

[ childe can't help but to smile at that. ] I could have put my foot down... I can never say no to a fight, especially a good one. It's my own fault. I had a great time, but I was reckless, and I hurt us both as a result. If anyone should be sorry it's me.

[ oof, well about that ]

If there's a next time I'm asking everyone to kill me and let me get sent to Lilith for revival. I don't know if it's the same for you, being confined, but I can't do that again. It was -- torture. Even thinking about it makes me almost panic.

Maybe when I get my room upgrade, being locked in a wide open space with a hunting ground I'll be able to take. You'd always be welcome in there, but only because I know you can handle me even when I'm out of my mind.

As for before... [ she sighs in a way that is clearly about her energy levels and not about him ] You weren't reckless any more than I was. Your mask was already cracking because of what I was making you talk about. If I was going to ask for a fight to the death, I should have planned it out, not left it to you to fix after I was gone while you were in that state.

I didn't want to hurt you or anyone else. I wasn't thinking, and I can't let that happen.

Alizarin.

[ he looks pained hearing her think that *that* is a solution to this problem. ] Do you really think that's going to help... [ he instinctively reaches for his mask. ] It's only going to make things worse. What she does to you, what your soul and your body undergo when she has to revive you, ...

I wouldn't be like this if not for her.

I would still have control.

I don't want to see this happen to you. [ his fingers slip through the notches in his mask. ] I know you don't want to be locked up again, and I can understand that, the feeling of being confined and trapped and... [ he lets his hand drop. ] but, Alizarin, please don't do that. Let me help you think of something else. Anything else.

[ That does give her pause, in a way it hadn't when Lupine brought it up. She adores Lupine, but he has no earthly clue what it's like being like she is. Caeli does. ~~Also she'll be having a bit of a chat with Pentium before deciding anything which is a funny thing to bring up in this thread~~ ]

I hear what you're saying, but -- I don't see another way. If you can think of one that doesn't require either me hurting anyone else while I'm out of my mind or anyone else standing by while I break myself open trying to escape, I'm listening.

[ ~~lol. feel free to hit him up whenever for a chitchat~~. ]

I know... the feeling of being backed into a corner is the worst, but there's got to be another way, and even if I have to spend an entire day with you wracking my brain for another solution, then that's what I'll do. But I promised you an evening of getting absolutely blasted, no, ..? We can temporarily shelf the heavy chat. I think we both deserve a few bottles of liquor after everything... don't you?

[ he does still want to continue this conversation, but he also doesn't want to keep killing the mood. he does want her to have a good night after a bad game, so shots shots shots! [

-- Yeah, okay. [ She's too woozy to really get into it more anyway. ]

Doctor's going to transfuse me first [ don't even ask her to drink blood she can't do it yet ], can we come by in an hour or so? If I don't get some blood first I'll be something between a real cheap date and no fun at all.

[ ~~just tell me where to tag and she'll be there doing trick pool shots and trick booze shots!~~ ]

Yeah, sure, that's fine. I need to find my unitmate anyway, but I can also shoot you a text. [ going to drop her off with doctor or something, but lol timey wimey might make that a bit confusing. ] I'll see you later, Rin, feel better.

Well I can't feel much worse. [ This is meant to be encouraging! ]

[ She gives his shoulder a tight squeeze before half-staggering off with Doctor ]

I'll see you soon.

(it's gonna rain tonight)

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