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[shrugs]

Guess I'm just like this.

Oh.

[Really just nothing, huh? He supposes he shouldn't be surprised, it isn't like he remembers why his other self was so comfortable with it either. Or why he isn't anymore.]

Have you ever not been like this?

Does it matter? I'm like this now.

Well, I was asking because I...

... While I do not want to kill indiscriminately, I have struggled to bring my full strength to bear when it is necessary. I do not like the idea that I should falter when I am needed.

[He just wants to know how he can be like. MODERATELY OK with SOME murder.

Who would know how to be better at being ok with murder than Valor?]

[Hades. look at your life, look at your choices.]

What, you want some fucking advice? How to murder for fun and profit? Well, either you have the will for it or you don't. And if you don't, then maybe it's 'cause you fucking lost it at some point, in which case, sucks to be you.

[He sighs, scrubbing at his face with his hands. What a predicament.]

So that is just it, then?

'S all I got for you, blondie.

[He grunts at that, annoyed. Maybe not at Valor, but certainly annoyed in general. He wants to be ABLE to fight. Not sure what he expected to go otherwise, actually.]

........

Well.

You want to get drinks?

Seriously? You're asking me? Wow, you are really fucked up over this killing thing, aren't you.

Fine, but you're paying.

Do not read too much into it. I want to be self-destructive, but I do not want to do it alone, and I feel like most people I would ask would be insufferable about taking care of myself.

I have no issue with paying.

Yeah, because that's definitely a fucking problem I have, catching feelings about people.

Don't worry, you wanna get fucked up, I'm happy to keep ordering on your tab until you can't walk.

That is what I mean. You do not have this problem, so it will be fine.

[He gets out his phone.]

How much should I get for you? I can get it delivered here, I believe.

[shrugs]

However much you want. Whatever I can't finish I'll just slip to you.

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[However much he wants??? That could be a truly heinous amount. He's a big man.]

Got any preferences?

[yeah, well, we aren't here to make GOOD drinking decisions]

What d'you drink in your neck of the woods? Sake? Works for me.

Sake, then. I'll get... let us start with three bottles. One for each of us and one to continue into.

[He pulls up his phone, ordering a delivery of 3 bottles of sake.]

[well, while they're waiting for it to arrive, Valor will finish up this bit of the carving he's working on, stashing both it and the knife in a pocket once the sake is delivered]

[Hades simply looks up to the sky, not even sure what he should expect when this delivery happens. The drone looks to him like some kind of large, strange insect as it arrives with the bottles in tow, and if insects existed around here he might have missed it until the bottles thwacked into his head.

Luckily for him, he manages not to make a complete fool of himself, getting the bottles from the drone. Then he reaches into thin air, summoning a knife in order to open two of the bottles, one of which he hands to Valor.]

We can order more when we finish these.

[taking the bottle and immediately taking a sip]

I figured that would happen, 'cause it's gonna take a lot more than this to fuck you up.

Mmmhh... it is true enough.

[He just lifts the bottle to his mouth and takes a long drink.]

I am quite tired of being afraid to act. Afraid to fight, afraid to hurt someone, afraid to... I do not know. Everything.

Maybe it is time that I were my own superior.

Uh... yeah, probably. What, are you waiting for somebody to give you fucking permission or something? What exactly are you even fucking afraid of?

........ I think I was.

[He's just barely not chugging his drink. He's a big guy and frankly, he's drinking to get drunk. No two ways about it.]

I guess I am afraid that if I act out, I am going to be a big piece of shit again and then I will become everyones enemy. That maybe people will think that I am not worth the time and effort, and they will just try to get rid of me.

[Valor is sipping at his bottle, but probably only actually drinking every second or third sip. he's not drinking to get drunk himself, but he IS here to helpfully encourage Hades' efforts in that area.]

Well, death doesn't even fucking work right here, so I'm pretty sure it's fucking impossible to get rid of anyone. Worst they could do is probably just stop talking to you.

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[Thankfully, Hades has not noticed, and doesn't seem inclined to mind, drinking liberally without looking over too often.]

I mean, you can disappear still. If you are away too long...

[It's a scary prospect, but he knows it is possible.]

I would not like it if everyone stopped talking to me either, though. I prefer being social, though I can imagine you do not care as much for it.

[Valor shrugs, sipping his sake again]

So find some people who don't give a shit about you being a murderer. You probably even already know some. Who aren't me, even.