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Well... I don't mind if people know we're involved. The details are none of their business, is all.

[Despite what certain people will tell you on the internet, there's nothing scandalous about holding hands with your significant other.]

Mm, of course. [ She tends to be bad at secrets if she's struggling with a problem, but good at talking about things without naming names or specifics. And, aside from a general inquiry about potato sacks and the acquisition thereof, she hasn't said a thing. If there's one thing she has no intuitive talent for, it's this. ]

If people know, you might be subject to one or more -- well, some of my friends are protective. They might want to size you up, or they might be curious.

[People could want potato sacks for all kinds of reasons, that doesn't mean anything.]

I worry about disappointing... But I will do my best, at least.

I don't worry about that. And they wouldn't go too far, at all. It's just that they know I can sometimes seem fragile. I like to think I'm stronger than that, but I can't fault them for caring.

[ She does put everything on her sleeve, which she sometimes thinks contributes to people considering her weak or overly needy. She needs people to process her emotions, is all. Trying to do it alone makes her miserable. ]

Indeed not. I'm glad that you have people looking out for your happiness.

[He will still fret a little, but his self-worth is... not great at the best of times.]

I'm very lucky to have them. I only wish I was closer with my unit, but some things take time I suppose. [ Unlike HSS, Zrael is... prickly. And Aliza can certainly be that, but she doesn't want to be, which makes it difficult for her to decide how close she even cares to be with them. ]

Some people are harder to connect with than others. Not that I can comment on your unit much, but...

[They seemed. Interesting, but maybe not the most friendly.]

There's a reputation at play there. You'll hear it if you haven't yet, and it's not unearned.

There were several transfers from my unit very recently, and the two that have been there longest are lamenting that the unit isn't so close anymore, but unfortunately they haven't tried to get to know me very much. If I had to guess, I sought out people from other units because I felt excluded.

And they didn't treat me very well in the game, either. I know everyone was pretty off, but even so. I'm willing to work on it, but I'm not willing to be -- ruthless. Even if it means losing.

I wouldn't call that 'not willing to be ruthless', truthfully. Not wanting to lose yourself to madness and violence, in your position, is perfectly understandable. That you were able to keep yourself from doing that is a personal victory.

[ She has to pause for just a second, because hearing him say that is so -- like a breath of air she hadn't known she was lacking. ]

It doesn't feel much like one, but I guess it was. Zhongli told me after that he was proud of me, which was... it meant a lot to me. [ She has struggled with Zhongli specifically because she felt that disappointing him was inevitable, so to hear that was meaningful beyond words. ]

I'm not sure how much they understand of it; I tried to explain during the game but it was the worst possible time. I'm trying to explain it better now. I didn't trust them enough to share that memory before the game, so it's not their fault for not knowing what I didn't share.

I can see how that would go badly. We had arguments on our team, and we were all more or less on the same page.

[Not even getting into the 'killing and eating one of their own' thing.]

I hope you're able to explain it, at least.

I'll make it work. I'm here to support them if I can, just not above anything and everything else.

Anyway, I'm sorry for going on a tangent. I'm supposed to be helping you feel better, not whining in your ear.

[ And there's the hotel now so comfort vibes are where it's at, tea and storms and pillows. ]

Not at all. If anything, I'm glad for the distraction from my own troubles for a moment.

[Tea will definitely improve things though.]

You're really too wonderful for words. [ She bumps his shoulder with hers as they move toward the elevator, subtle but extremely fond. ] I'd say you should work on that, but I think it's a hopeless condition.

You'll give me an ego at this rate. [Bumps her shoulder back.]

That's a risk I'm willing to take. [ He could use a higher self-esteem in her humble opinion ~~pot meet kettle~~ ]

[ And up to the ☆Zrael floor they go, and with her shiny new phone she opens the door. ]

The kitchen's just this way.

[Heading to the kitchen, and immediately zeroing in on the Tea.]

Ah, sencha green tea. A classic.

[ She watches for a moment, happy to see him happy. ]

I'll go set up the table in there, unless you want to sit on the pillows. You know the way in, yeah? [ It's not as though there are 40 rooms like at sIV and he's been there twice before.. ]

Yes, of course. And if I get lost I'll call for you.

[He is plenty forgetful, he might get lost.]

[ The prospect that he might get lost between one room and the next is somehow adorable ]

If it comes to it, I'll launch a rescue mission.

[ Into the rainy day room she goes, setting up the table and chairs in a nice spot and arranging a nest of pillows, he can have his choice. She's busy fluffing pillows because it's sort of fun. ]

[Hmm hmm hmm, preparing the tea. It's ready soon enough, and he steps into the room he's 99% sure is the right one.

...

Okay. Not that one, that's a theater. Second try?]

Second try isn't bad, I think.

[ somehow this is so charming ahhh ]

Not bad at all. Table or pillows?

Pillows, always. [Settles down to make himself comfortable, two cups of tea in hand.] Here you are.

[ That's her preference too. She tucks herself into the nest, close to him but not overly so. Drinking tea and cuddling are best done one after the other. ]

Thank you. Am I correct in thinking you'll be spending a lot of time in this room? [ He'll learn the way eventually, through sheer muscle memory if nothing else. ]

As long as I continue to be able to find you here.

[It's a lovely room, but it wouldn't be nearly the same without Aliza in it.]