maybe your memories will be... better...?

[softlyfalling]

Who: all y'all
Where: wheremstever you want to take memories
When: Day 354

[ decent odds your memories will be better than what's been going on around here, right ]

Comments

Re: Witnesses OK! cw suicidal ideation/mentions

[protectshisown]

What's going to keep you most responsive right now?

Because you can talk, I can talk, but I think the biggest thing is you need to not shut down with only that rattling around. So something else entirely is on the table.

Re: Witnesses OK! cw suicidal ideation/mentions

[bondsofsuffering]

[There's another lengthy pause. His mind is normally so quick, but right now, there's so many conflicting thoughts ‐ should he talk? Is any of it even worth saying? Is that supposed to excuse it? Does it really matter, that the victim was suicidal, that the victim had murdered so many, that he didn't want to do it but he still did and thought that somehow, that would make it any easier, but of course it didn't-

...

What ugly thoughts he has.

When he finally does speak, his voice is small and quiet.]

I don't want to be here.

Re: Witnesses OK! cw suicidal ideation/mentions

[protectshisown]

[He reaches out to take Izanagi's hand and will tug him to his feet.]

Quiet or noise?

Re: Witnesses OK! cw suicidal ideation/mentions

[bondsofsuffering]

[Hesitating again as he's tugged up, before:]

Noise.

Re: Witnesses OK! cw suicidal ideation/mentions

[protectshisown]

Public or your dorm?

Re: Witnesses OK! cw suicidal ideation/mentions

[bondsofsuffering]

...

Dorm.

Re: Witnesses OK! cw suicidal ideation/mentions

[protectshisown]

[Squeezing his hand. He is not gonna let go of this hand anytime soon on his own.]

[Gonna lead him back to SensitIV. Pulling out his phone and he's gonna start his list of youtube videos about steel making and electrical engineering.]

Re: Witnesses OK! cw suicidal ideation/mentions

[bondsofsuffering]

[Following. And-]

I don't want to stay in the common room long.

[It's bad enough he was already seen here.]

Re: Witnesses OK! cw suicidal ideation/mentions

[protectshisown]

We won't. Pretty sure I can find ways to shoo off most of your unit for a bit.

They might hunt you down later if they do see us, but.... [Shrugs.]

I was thinking that arcade place again?

Re: Witnesses OK! cw suicidal ideation/mentions

[bondsofsuffering]

[He just nods, gaze on the ground.]

Re: Witnesses OK! cw suicidal ideation/mentions

[protectshisown]

[Squeezing his hand again and.]

[Deeeeebaaaaates.]

Does Sensitiv have a balcony?

Re: Witnesses OK! cw suicidal ideation/mentions

[bondsofsuffering]

[Tensing a little.]

-I don't...

That's probably a bad place.

Re: Witnesses OK! cw suicidal ideation/mentions

[protectshisown]

....that bad, huh?

Re: Witnesses OK! cw suicidal ideation/mentions

[bondsofsuffering]

[Hhhh deep breaths.]

I got four memories. Three private ones - all of 'em were attempts.

[Which - he can deal with, it's not like it's news that he regularly tried to take his life only to fail, fail, fail, but.]

Re: Witnesses OK! cw suicidal ideation/mentions

[protectshisown]

....your luck is terrible.

So, sleepover? I think you need a sleepover.

[Need someone to keep his away from balconies.]

Re: Witnesses OK! cw suicidal ideation/mentions

[bondsofsuffering]

It's nothing I didn't already know.

[There's a layer of bitterness under those words this time, but he falls silent again, still trying to arrange his thoughts to respond.]

...My room has space. We can just skip the arcade.

[His room has a lock.]

Re: Witnesses OK! cw suicidal ideation/mentions

[protectshisown]

There's a difference in knowing and having to relive it with other horrible things at once.

Okay. We can watch videos. I got lots.

Re: Witnesses OK! cw suicidal ideation/mentions

[bondsofsuffering]

They weren't as significant as you think.

[Just three attempts out of- who knows how many?

It's a dull pain, all things considered.]

Re: Witnesses OK! cw suicidal ideation/mentions

[protectshisown]

Stuff can still build. Especially in quick succession.

And you're significant to me, so its enough for me to worry.

Re: Witnesses OK! cw suicidal ideation/mentions

[bondsofsuffering]

[Well, he won't argue it at least. But that just means he's going silent again.]

Re: Witnesses OK! cw suicidal ideation/mentions

[protectshisown]

[He's still got the youtube on.]

[Into the Hotel we go and for the elevators.]

Re: Witnesses OK! cw suicidal ideation/mentions

[bondsofsuffering]

[He remains silent the whole way, only taking the initiative to school his expression as they enter the dorm before tugging him quickly to his room.

There's significantly more space than before, even if it's still sparse and lacking in decorations for the shelves.]

Re: Witnesses OK! cw suicidal ideation/mentions

[protectshisown]

[Oh.]

You treated yourself, huh?

[Did let himself be tugged in.]

Re: Witnesses OK! cw suicidal ideation/mentions

[bondsofsuffering]

Levi made me promise to before he left.

[Locking the door from his phone before taking a seat on the edge of the bed.]

Re: Witnesses OK! cw suicidal ideation/mentions

[protectshisown]

Good call on his part.

[Will sit down beside him.] ....how are you feeling?