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Who: BAD END = DUMB END and others
When: post-game
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[SO.

THAT SUCKED.

THAT REALLY REALLY SUCKED.

TIME TO FLOP INTO OUR SUCKY DORMS AFTER A SUCKY GAME.

I GUESS PEOPLE CAN COME OVER TO... Y'KNOW... IF THEY WANNA.]

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[your FACE honey]

...Yeah. Mind if I come in?

[MOST of this was consensual at least.]

Ah--yeah of course.

[Stepping back, trying not to look really confused but looking really confused.]

[uuuup in his business]

You should really ice some of that.

[Doesn't lean back, just blinks.]

Yeah, you're right.

Here uh.... Sit...? [Our sitting arrangements suck but]

All right.

[letting himself be herded to the seating arrangements, however shitty.]

[Hesitates than sits... On the same couch, I guess.]

[folding his hands in his lap]

...I don't mean to leave you hanging, but I'm trying to figure out how to put this.

[Makes a little go on gesture, smiling gently.]

Don't worry about it, take your time.

[sssssighs]

I do hope your face isn't some kind of penance.

Ah... No that was for me. I needed to clear my head a bit.

I want to tell you to take better care of yourself, but it isn't as though I haven't done the same. Still, proper aftercare is key.

[HFFFF]

...I don't plan to hold that game against you.

[He was gonna thank Shuten for the consideration but he's just... looking at him now, not sure what expression he's making himself.]

...What made you decide that?

It's something I decided on after the first game in this place. I simply lost sight of that, for a little while.

[what with the FUCKING HEARTBREAK]

I don't think being upset is really unjustified, whatever you decided on.

I'm still upset.

Yeah. I... Yeah.

[What does he say even. He's at least calmer after spending all his energy punching feelings out with Oni.]

I'd be worried if you said you weren't, I guess.

I'm angry, and hurt. I've known this sort of thing was coming from the start, but I didn't expect it from Bad End. But I have known it was coming.

We made a mistake, and your unit took the fallout for it. It didn't have to happen, but it did, because we screwed up.

I don't know how to make up for this at all, if that's even possible, whether or not you hold it against us. But I want to try. To make it up to your unit, but also to you, specifically.

I'm afraid I don't have advice on how to make it up to anyone at all, least of all my unit. I'll calm down eventually on my own.

[Well he can just go offer Kuzuebiko his eye later then or something.]

How about this; is there something you want? I don't just mean materially. Talking, or anything else. I don't... Neglecting you is the last thing I want.

[shakes his head]

I'm not exchanging goods, services, or company for forgiveness. I'll come at it at my own pace.

I'm not thinking of an exchange or bribe... I just...

[Sighs and flops back against the back of the shitty couch.]

Honestly it's frustrating that there's nothing I can do to make a friend feel better, when I'm the one that messed up in the first place. Normally... I don't know? I'd just buy you something nice, or give you a hug, or talk... But now? Any of that takes on the wrong meaning.

It sucks. I get that. And I do appreciate that you want to make up for it. But ultimately there's only so much you can do, and the context for everything you can do is changed. That's how it is.

Yeah.

[Wow he is going to put a hand over his eyes while he tears up but it's fine, he's keeping his breathing normal, just don't look at him. Hand over his face is just frustration, and even his voice is level.]

That's how it is. If it's worth anything, or even if it isn't, I'm sorry.

[Shuten doesn't speak, but slips an arm around Rean's waist and pulls him into a half-hug.]