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[deadlynadder]

Who: Idols!
Where: Anywhere!
When: 504

[ It's a new day! Hopefully, you're feeling a little less zappy, jelly-like, and zany. And if you're not? Maybe that's the perfect excuse for ✨memories✨. ]

Comments

Re: cw; little gore mention

[glidinglight]

I thought that might be where this was going. Were you just not expecting it, or do you not have much control over that thing?

Re: cw; little gore mention

[malumdiscordiae]

A bit of both, honestly.

Re: cw; little gore mention

[glidinglight]

Is there anyone who can help you get rid of it?

[ Kind of poking to see what his response is here. ]

Re: cw; little gore mention

[malumdiscordiae]

This isn't exactly something I bring up to just... anybody. Demons and demon summoning are kind of, like, taboo.

Re: cw; little gore mention

[glidinglight]

[ what monsters aren't just an every day occurance to everyone? ]

Well, you figured out how to do it in the first place, right? How did that happen?

Re: cw; little gore mention

[malumdiscordiae]

[ nope! magical creatures like himself, sure, but not... monsters. although corrupted creatures could be considered monsters, probably. hm. ]

I did a lot of research on the subject. Humans like occult stuff. Most of the time it's written off as fake, and some of it probably IS fake, ...but if you piece together enough of it, then you'll find the actual factual stuff.

Re: cw; little gore mention

[glidinglight]

So do you think if you did a lot more research you could find something that isn't fake to help you exorcise it?

Re: cw; little gore mention

[malumdiscordiae]

I guess I'd first have to be interested in doing so, but [ shrugs. ] yeah, maybe.

Re: cw; little gore mention

[glidinglight]

So you're happy living possessed.

Re: cw; little gore mention

[malumdiscordiae]

...saying I'm possessed makes it seem like it's a bad thing. [ folds his arms. ] It's not always a bad thing. It's like being in a relationship... it has its ups and downs. [ i'm sorry he's a fucken idiot. ]

Re: cw; little gore mention

[glidinglight]

[ She doesn't miss a beat. ]

A relationship in which the downs are your partner forces you to murder a bunch of people against your will and hurts you so bad you end up in the hospital. You know what that sounds like, right?

Re: cw; little gore mention

[malumdiscordiae]

[ . . . ]

What?

Re: cw; little gore mention

[glidinglight]

[ REALLY?

she reaches out and takes a clean spoon and gently taps the top of his head with the piece of silverware. ]

Abuse. It sounds like you're in an abusive relationship.

1/2

[malumdiscordiae]

Ow!!

Re: cw; little gore mention

[malumdiscordiae]

B- But... I'm getting something out of it too... wouldn't I... not if it was abusive? Aren't those kinds of things one way? And I summoned him... I wanted this...

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[glidinglight]

You know, people who get into abusive relationships think they're getting one thing until they're getting another--and then they're in too deep. And it's not always bad. Sometimes things are nice! They get treated well, pampered, told how special they are between episodes.

Re: cw; little gore mention

[glidinglight]

If you really insist it's not like that, it's not really for me to say how you view your relationship, but... maybe instead of just looking at it purely from the lens of what you've "gained" you should consider the ways it's harmed you.

Re: cw; little gore mention

[malumdiscordiae]

... [ he's never stopped to think about it like that. he's never cared to. ] I... guess, yeah, that all... makes sense. [ but he's been selfish, thinking of himself and everything he's gained and been trying to gain, and not really caring about the side effects. like, yeah, he can say he cared that all of those people got sick and died now, but did he actually care then..? probably not. the amount of life the both of them got from that ordeal was insane. ]

I guess demons are bad for a reason, h- huh? [ tries for a smile. ]

Re: cw; little gore mention

[glidinglight]

[ Sometimes you need a little bit of hindsight to be able to really see the full picture. ]

Seems that way.

[ Just her experiences here have taught her that much. ]

Re: cw; little gore mention

[malumdiscordiae]

[ but maybe not all... demons... ]

[ he's really torn on this, and that much shows on his face. ]

Re: cw; little gore mention

[glidinglight]

[ She'll give him some time to think things over in silence while she enjoys her drink. ]

Re: cw; little gore mention

[malumdiscordiae]

... [ going to sip at his own drink. ] A- Anyway. [ this isn't something he's going to be able to come to a conclusion about in a few minutes. ] I... don't sing anymore. Not... like that. For fun, f- for friends, in... private, but... [ going to sip at his drink again. ]

Re: cw; little gore mention

[glidinglight]

I'm sorry to hear that. You have a lovely voice.

[ and more importantly, it had seemed like he had enjoyed getting to share it with others so much. ]

I hope some day you'll be able to be comfortable to have a larger audience again.

Re: cw; little gore mention

[malumdiscordiae]

[ his face colors at the compliment. ] I... thanks. That means a lot to me. [ he manages a smile, keeping a firm hold on the drink. ] I... I'm sure I'll get over it. I mean, I guess I'm just worried it could happen again, like... some part of me. Because whenever people turn their attention on me, that's when I can siphon life from them, ...so it's always just a big... gamble.

But that was still early on in our relationship. We did a lot of smaller things and maybe he felt like I was starving him. I don't know. I... [ shakes his head. ] A- Anyway. Enough of that. How about we talk about you?

Re: cw; little gore mention

[glidinglight]

Me? What about me?