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[deadlynadder]

Who: Idols!
Where: Anywhere!
When: 504

[ It's a new day! Hopefully, you're feeling a little less zappy, jelly-like, and zany. And if you're not? Maybe that's the perfect excuse for ✨memories✨. ]

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[malumdiscordiae]

[ his headphones slide off as he leans back to look at tsukasa, giving him a weak smile. ] Hey there, Tsukasa. [ by this point in time he's learned he broadcasted a memory, and a not so good one at that. ]

[heavyliesthecrown]

[ Moving to take a seat across from him. ]

You... experienced quite the memory. I just wanted to check in.

[malumdiscordiae]

[ alala smiles, but it doesn't stick. ] I used to like to sing... I mean I still do, but... that's the last time I performed like that. And that song. It'd been my favorite. Sometimes I catch myself humming it, but... [ sighs. ] I never never finish it...

[heavyliesthecrown]

[ . . . ]

Would singing something new, help? As an idol, the idea of finding music painful after the joy you once experienced from singing... it feels a little sad.

[malumdiscordiae]

...mm, I guess I could try to find a new favorite song. And maybe one of these days I'll even stop feeling so torn up about what happened. I guess I still just kind of feel... bad. I never wanted to kill all of those people. I've done some pretty terrible things, I mean... it was already kind of... terrible. [ stealing life. ] but I tried to do so as safely as I could...

[heavyliesthecrown]

I am not sure what I can say on the subject. That is a lot for me to process. I imagine... it is even moreso for you.

[malumdiscordiae]

Kind of, yeah, especially since I remember things, but not fully, so it's all sorts of confusing. I feel like it wouldn't be as bad if I just... didn't remember anything and then got it all back without any of the bullshit. But who knows. Both suck, honestly.

[heavyliesthecrown]

[ He nods, a touch solemn. ]

I do believe that the manner in which the producers allow us to regain our memories, is meant to inflict the most amount of confusion or frustration. Great entertainment for their shameful audience.

[malumdiscordiae]

...yeah, you're probably right. I know drama and stuff makes for great TV. Soap Operas wouldn't have existed for, like, basically forever if that stuff didn't sell. [ sighs. ] Well, I just hope I can figure out what the hell is going on. I have a few people helping me, so... there's that.