unbirthday indeed

[wonderofwonders]

WHO: LiliS (friends welcome too)
WHERE: LiliS
WHEN: Day 495

[She's a little late but it's fine-- at least there's no more weird forced obedience.

We're having a tea party here at LiliS to celebrate the successful win of playing safe even if it was less fun than whatever the heck HSS and friends were doing.

And since she had time it's a whole Wonderland party in here. Tea and snacks for LiliS (and friends).]

Comments

[at_heart]

Guess that's my cue to give him the shovel talk, huh?

[wonderofwonders]

[...okay she doesn't know what that is but she knows that face.]

Be nice!!! If he breaks up with me I'm gonna be really mad at you!

[Spoiler: she won't. But!! Be good to her cute boy!!!!]

[at_heart]

[ He is 98% joking, don't worry. ]

I can be nice. I'm pretty sure I've let him like braid my hair or something.

[ hazy siren song memories, ]

[wonderofwonders]

Good! I want him to feel at home here too.

[She trusts her family. They're good. Or else she would have bothered to give them more warnings. But she trusts them with her life, she can definitely trust them with her boyfriend.]

[at_heart]

[ ...Heh. ]

I've tried. [ Tsukky clearly wanted to spend more time with Eichi than he allowed himself. ] Maybe we'll have better luck together.

[wonderofwonders]

Mmn. I know he loves avante and he already spends a lot of time with Taisho-- but I'd like it if he felt like he could stay here more too.

But that's just wishful thinking.

[at_heart]

[ Frooooowning. Strongly dislikes the accepting way she says that. ]

I mean, if he doesn't like hanging out here, that's his bad taste. We've got one of the nicest dorms.

[wonderofwonders]

Staaaaahp!

[Emu giggles.]

He's a good, proper boy-- so it was probably weird before since we weren't really together, since he still knew I liked him. Maybe it'll be different now!

[at_heart]

[ r u sure about all of that emu ]

...yeah, I mean. His fanbase used to be pretty — what's the word... puritanical?

[ He'd say it's gotten better, but he's not sure Tsukky would agree. ]

[wonderofwonders]

--weugh? That's a big word...

[She gets the idea though, she thinks. But she's not one to be scared off by a little challenge.]

Maybe they won't approve of me at first, but-- I'm gonna prove them wrong! I'll show them that I'm the best girlfriend in the whole world for him!

[at_heart]

[ Oh, baby. It's not you. They wouldn't approve of Tsukasa dating anyone, probably. ]

I wouldn't worry about it. That kind of fan is just looking for reasons to be upset, if you ask me.

[wonderofwonders]

I don’t like thinking bad of our fans but… I know some of them are wrong. But I still want to show them that they can enjoy this show for the right reasons…

[at_heart]

[ You real-idol idols will be the death of him. ]

I mean, if it were me, I'd try to focus on the fans I know I can make happy. There're gonna be some people in the audience who are only disappointed that you're not doing all your kissing where the cameras can see.

[wonderofwonders]

But if you only try to make those people happy, then you might miss out on people who might be your next big fans!

I don’t want to give up just because it’s a little more difficult…

[at_heart]

[ Yeah, he just. Cannot understand this mindset at all. It'd be one thing if she were thinking like Izzy about using her fans to power herself up. ]

You don't think it's better to have a smaller fanbase of people who like you for... well, not who you really are, but at least stuff you already wanna do? Stuff you're comfortable doing?

[wonderofwonders]

Mmm, well... I won't forgive people who want to smile because other people are suffering. We deserve to smile too.

But-- I don't think that means I have to give up on them either. I want to prove them wrong... that smiles are better than those horrible games. I want this to also be a place where everyone, no matter who they are, can smile.

[at_heart]

[ ...Hand settling gently onto the crown of her head. ]

You can't make everyone happy all the time, though. We're all different. We want different things.

[ —There's maybe. A touch of heaviness to his voice that he didn't mean to let get in there. Lupine's gaze slides away, hand withdrawing again, before he offers up a much less complicated smile. ]

Graduations, for example. Hard not to want the people we care about to stay with us, right? One event, making some people happy and other people sad.

[wonderofwonders]

No... and I think those different things are important. Maybe I can't reach them but-- I still feel like it would be wrong not to try. It's okay if it doesn't work. But at least then... I can say I did my best-- right?

[She watches him. Extremely idealistic or not, she's sharp. She recognizes those kinds of expressions. After all, that's why Bell scares her so much.]

...yeah. I know what you mean. It's their happy ending... but-- it's that feeling of being afraid that you won't get to be in whatever comes next. It's really sad...

[at_heart]

[ being Perceived there, he's sure ]

...Something like that.

[ This was supposed to be the safer topic! Rude. ]

—Look, I just... don't think the fans in our audience are really like the ones you had back home. My first fan mail here, I got a letter from someone asking very nicely if they could have my head after I lost it for the first time.

[wonderofwonders]

...mmn... but there are a lot of people on this show who aren't anything like the ones back home either.

[But her cheeks puff up and she frowns very deeply when he tells her about the letter he got.]

That's wrong. And I won't forgive them if they try to hurt the people I care about! But... just because they're "demons"... I can't just accept that means they can't be shown that we're different and that this kind of thing hurts us. Different doesn't have to mean bad...

[at_heart]

[ His lips quirk a tiny bit. ]

Don't worry, I'm not prejudging them for being demons. I just...

[ Lets himself trail off, rubbing the back of his neck slowly. ]

Would hate to see you sacrifice any of your own happiness, trying to please everyone in our audience.

[wonderofwonders]

I don't want to sacrifice my happiness to make others happy. If I can't smile-- how am I supposed to make other people smile?

That's what I feel in my heart.

[at_heart]

[ ...babyyyy. ]

Yeah, well, I think that's — a good place to start.