Mingle time!

[heavyliesthecrown]

Who: Idols
Where: Everywhere
When: Day 443; Whenever

[ So I heard we got some newbies. Let's release them into the wild! ]

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[ouji4board]

Alex...

[firstworldproblem]

Am I wrong?

[ouji4board]

[ mngnnghjkgffffft ]

[firstworldproblem]

[He pets his head with a smile.]

Too much? Alright. Alright, I will relent. Just breathe.

[ouji4board]

I kinda wanna die a lil bit. Is that a thing we can make happen?

[firstworldproblem]

.... Now why is that?

[ouji4board]

I'm only good at fucking things up? [ snorts ] And, y'know, fucking things. But that's not really the point. But like, if even Allison couldn't be a good mom, and like-- She's, y'know, actually competent... [ memories are great??? ]

Also I know myself well enough that I definitely didn't let Five know I was freaking out. God, what the fuck. I'm freaking out more now than I was in that memory.

[firstworldproblem]

'Tis not too surprising. You were trying to forestall a crisis and thus you pushed down your feelings, your emotions, so you could function.

But you have memories after this. You know you took care of him.

[ouji4board]

I mean, I know I didn't kill him in the first few weeks, so that's a success, right?

[firstworldproblem]

You really don't think that your company is enough, do you?

[ouji4board]

Company is okay when you don't have needs like food and water and shelter.

[firstworldproblem]

And Five can find food, water and shelter on his own. He has proven that in other timelines. What he didn't have was company.

As a person who ended up on their own shattered star, their own apocalypse, trust me, it is more important sometimes than the essentials.

[ouji4board]

Five had to do that on his own cause he didn't have a choice. I'm not gonna let him have to do that. Or--I hope I didn't.

Ohhhh, man. Withdrawal's gonna be a bitch.

[firstworldproblem]

Goodness. It is going to be. Though at least you will be preoccupied with other matters. The smallest of blessings.

And I know you won't. I know it seems overwhelming now, but it will come to you even if you falter from time to time.

[ouji4board]

Yeeeah... Thanks, man.

[ unconvinced! but! trying? he rolls onto his back so he can blink slowly up at Alex ]

Don't you get sick of having to talk me down all the time?

[firstworldproblem]

Not at all. If I didn't want to be here, Klaus, I wouldn't be.

[ouji4board]

[ nods and goes on, shakily: ]

I am so sick of being overwhelmed with shit like this. ...I wonder if that's why I'm so bad at people.

[firstworldproblem]

I do think you need to decompress. And I would like to find a more natural solution. What does help?

[ouji4board]

I mean, from experience? Drugs, drinks, sex. But I'm trying to cut out the first and cut down the second and I am in the longest dry spell I've ever had.

Except for being in the fucking apocalypse, I guess.

[firstworldproblem]

Do you paint, Klaus?

[ouji4board]

Uh. ...My face, I guess. But not if you mean like, artsy.

[firstworldproblem]

No need to be artsy. Just a way to express your feelings. We could try that.

[ouji4board]

I guess it's Taisho-y.

[firstworldproblem]

My, I haven't even thought of that. Wait here. I will get supplies.

[He pets his head and gets up coming back with an easel, brushes and paint.]

I went through a few hobbies before I found one that stuck.

[ouji4board]

[ balks a bit THIS IS STRESSFUL ]

...What stuck?