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[columbidaring]

Who: Everyone
Where: Everywhere
When: Day 26! Morning into afternoon!

[ wow it's almost like day 25 flew by while we were all busy locked in our dorms crying. now there's a mingle?? ]

Comments

[crossmyheartandhope]

...yeah? Like what?

[sancrimony]

Like. . . perhaps, an explanation on my part, though - I don't wish to make any excuses, nor force you to hear me out . . .

[crossmyheartandhope]

I'm pretty sure "Everyone went crazy in that game," is a good enough explanation.

But if you wanna talk about more of it, go for it.

[sancrimony]

. . . Rather, I suppose, uhm . . .

The . . . Of course, you're free to pretend if didn't happen, but the . . . when we were in the chapel, I . . . kissed you . . .

[crossmyheartandhope]

...yeah. I remember.

[Not super well, because it has been a long, long time since then. But he definitely remembers the kiss. And the stabs. And also waking up again without a finger.]

[sancrimony]

[ man he thought he did the worst thing but maybe not ]

. . .

[ a little awkwardly ]

I don't really know . . . what to quite say . . . uhm . . .

It feels as though . . . it should be important, since that was . . . the first time I had . . . uhm, but - even so, that was something . . . I shouldn't have done, I'm sure -

[ and he's rubbing at his wrist now, scratching at it ]

[crossmyheartandhope]

...hey. I get it. Everyone was - was kind of losing it.

But it's over now. Okay?

[sancrimony]

[ with a twist of his expression, unsatisfied but he takes a moment and nods, letting the crease in his brow smooth out ]

. . . Mm, I'm glad for that much. It was dreadful, in that house . . .

[crossmyheartandhope]

Yeah. That place was kind of the worst.

[Falls silent for a couple of beats, just lost in his thoughts. Then, finally:]

What did you mean, important?

[sancrimony]

[ stiff, bringing a hand to rub at his neck ]

Uhm.

As far as I can remember, it would be the first time I've ever kissed someone . . .

[crossmyheartandhope]

[Saaame.]

Day for firsts, huh?

[sancrimony]

. . . Yes.

[ uncomfortably, ]

My apologies . . .

[crossmyheartandhope]

...hey. It wasn't you. Everyone was -

That place messed everyone up.

[sancrimony]

. . . For yourself, was there . . . no single aspect of that experience that was borne from your own self. . . . ?

[crossmyheartandhope]

...I wanted to help you. That part was me, I think.

Even though -

E-even with evrything else going on, I didn't want to see you cry. Dumb, right?

[sancrimony]

[ his face flushes pink and he brings his hand up to scrub at his eyes ]

- . . . I don't think so. It isn't dumb . . . It isn't dumb at all.

Even through all of that, Hurricane-san is kind. It makes me happy to hear . . .

[crossmyheartandhope]

...look at me. We're out of there, and here I am just making you cry again.

Sorry, dude.

[sancrimony]

No!

[ shaking his head, looking up to him ]

I'm not crying! Not even a little bit - !

[ he's just EMBARRASSED BECAUSE YOU'RE CUTE AND ENDEARING AND TOUCHED HIS HEART BUT IN A METAPHORICAL WAY ]

[crossmyheartandhope]

...okay. Okay, cool.

[sancrimony]

R-really, to worry about something like that . . . !

[ with a huff ]

I've - I've done enough crying. I don't want to cry again until I have to call another Live . . .

But if I - if I was crying just now, it would have been with happy tears! Please, make no mistake about that!

[crossmyheartandhope]

You're happy, then?

1/2

[sancrimony]

. . . .

[ cripes he's embarrassed. looking a little flustered, but he swallows it down ]

[sancrimony]

[ but the embarrassment melts away and his shoulders sag, his body relaxes and he smiles ]

. . . Yes. Thank you, Hurricane-san.

[crossmyheartandhope]

...good. I'm glad.

[sancrimony]

[ taking in a breath, and smiling a little sheepishly ]

. . . My apologies - I don't really know . . . mmm, even though I called you out here, I didn't have anything much to say. Even so, I enjoyed being here with you . . .