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[syncintohell]

Who: Taisho
Where: Taisho's Dorms
When: Day 120, evening

[ So it's evening and possibly after dinner, but late enough we're all awake and those of us who were out all day are back at home.

Some of us had memories to take or fashion to show each other, yes? ]

Comments

Re: MEMORY WITNESS

[furrytailprince]

... It doesn't change what I am or what I did.

Re: MEMORY WITNESS

[bluerosestyle]

It doesn't. Only you can change that. But an apology can change things for him.

Re: MEMORY WITNESS

[furrytailprince]

Him?

Re: MEMORY WITNESS

[bluerosestyle]

For C.

Your past can't change, but your present and your future can.

Re: MEMORY WITNESS

[furrytailprince]

... How do I know if I still have a future?

Re: MEMORY WITNESS

[bluerosestyle]

I edited my profile so I could have one.

Re: MEMORY WITNESS

[furrytailprince]

... That's right. We can do that...

[ Doesn't sound like he's going to jump on that ]

... But what would I even be saving?

Re: MEMORY WITNESS

[bluerosestyle]

[look, sol of all people won't judge him for wanting to die if he's serious about it, but]

...I think you're worth saving.

Re: MEMORY WITNESS

[furrytailprince]

... Even if I can't amount to anything significant?

Re: MEMORY WITNESS

[bluerosestyle]

You can. But-- even if you don't, that's fine too!

Re: MEMORY WITNESS

[furrytailprince]

But I'm a prince! I'm supposed to be special!

Re: MEMORY WITNESS

[bluerosestyle]

. . . Nobles aren't different from the common people. They're just raised with different expectations.

Re: MEMORY WITNESS

[furrytailprince]

... I just want to be something. Like my brother.

Re: MEMORY WITNESS

[bluerosestyle]

. . . What was he like?

Re: MEMORY WITNESS

[furrytailprince]

Strong. Smart. Charismatic. Father said he was a natural leader. My polar opposite in every way.

Re: MEMORY WITNESS

[bluerosestyle]

That's more than just something.

Re: MEMORY WITNESS

[furrytailprince]

What do you mean?

Re: MEMORY WITNESS

[bluerosestyle]

I don't think what you said is the opposite of who you are, or who you can be. But it doesn't sound like you wanted to be that way for your own sake.

Re: MEMORY WITNESS

[furrytailprince]

I do want it for my own sake! I want to be noticed and recognized. I don't want to be forgotten as if I were never even there.

Re: MEMORY WITNESS

[bluerosestyle]

. . .

Whose recognition do you want?

Re: MEMORY WITNESS

[furrytailprince]

Back home? I'm not even sure anymore.

Re: MEMORY WITNESS

[bluerosestyle]

And here?

Re: MEMORY WITNESS

[furrytailprince]

... it's a little different here.

Re: MEMORY WITNESS

[bluerosestyle]

In what way?

Re: MEMORY WITNESS

[furrytailprince]

[ Tail sways slightly, as he goes silent for a bit before... ]

... I suppose... I have people who believe in me.