Yeah. I'm not gonna air her dirty laundry or bad feelios or whatever but...
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Well. She'd never say anything if I let her, same as you. But if it involves us-- and if I think we can really like... make things better, we at least try. Or I ask her to, anyway. If she says no though it's no biggie.
Well... we talked about this once before, right? When you have something real painful it's like a big raw open cut. But instead of cleaning it you ignore it and hope it goes away and instead it gets all infected and hurts more and more and by the time you DO manage to try to fix it then you gotta like, clean it, but then also take medicine and pay even more attention to it and it takes a lot longer to heal...
So if you just try to fix it as soon as you can, it won't hurt any more than it did when the bad thing first happened, at least. And it can heal better and faster.
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Yeah, it makes me tired. But I get more tired when I gotta hold in all my feelings and pretend it don't hurt, like I been lately. And sometimes I don't wanna talk about stuff either, not yet, cuz I gotta think about it more... and that's tiring too, but... less than never doing anything at all.
Cuz it's just... been a lot of stuff one after the other, and I'm not that smart, so every time I think I figure something out another thing happens and I gotta rethink it all over again.
... it's getting a little better lately though. I think...
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... I know you don't like to but I'm always here for you if you wanna try. Okay? Me and Nem talk about lots of stuff, too.
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[ a pause ]
Well. She'd never say anything if I let her, same as you. But if it involves us-- and if I think we can really like... make things better, we at least try. Or I ask her to, anyway. If she says no though it's no biggie.
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...don't you get tired?
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So if you just try to fix it as soon as you can, it won't hurt any more than it did when the bad thing first happened, at least. And it can heal better and faster.
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Yeah, it makes me tired. But I get more tired when I gotta hold in all my feelings and pretend it don't hurt, like I been lately. And sometimes I don't wanna talk about stuff either, not yet, cuz I gotta think about it more... and that's tiring too, but... less than never doing anything at all.
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...how come you been holding it in lately? If you think that, about the infection or whatever.
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... it's getting a little better lately though. I think...
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[A beat, considering.]
I'm glad, though. That it's getting better.
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[ until i go try to murder lucifel.
She leans a little. ]
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Did you wanna go again?
On the memories, I mean.
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[ buying another ]
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[ THROWS HER ARMS UP AND FLEXES ]
DEMON JUICE.
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Oh my god. Dude.
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Man. That was real dumb.
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