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Well... we talked about this once before, right? When you have something real painful it's like a big raw open cut. But instead of cleaning it you ignore it and hope it goes away and instead it gets all infected and hurts more and more and by the time you DO manage to try to fix it then you gotta like, clean it, but then also take medicine and pay even more attention to it and it takes a lot longer to heal...

So if you just try to fix it as soon as you can, it won't hurt any more than it did when the bad thing first happened, at least. And it can heal better and faster.

[ quiet for a moment ]

Yeah, it makes me tired. But I get more tired when I gotta hold in all my feelings and pretend it don't hurt, like I been lately. And sometimes I don't wanna talk about stuff either, not yet, cuz I gotta think about it more... and that's tiring too, but... less than never doing anything at all.

Edited 2019-05-29 21:48 (UTC)

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...how come you been holding it in lately? If you think that, about the infection or whatever.

Cuz it's just... been a lot of stuff one after the other, and I'm not that smart, so every time I think I figure something out another thing happens and I gotta rethink it all over again.

... it's getting a little better lately though. I think...

...dude. [Nudges her, gentle.] You're plenty smart.

[A beat, considering.]

I'm glad, though. That it's getting better.

... yeah.

[ until i go try to murder lucifel.

She leans a little. ]

[Leans back. It's a proper lean; he's sinking most of his weight into her, boneless and tired.]

Did you wanna go again?

On the memories, I mean.

Yeah, man. Sure.

[ buying another ]

...oh my god. Dude.

...

[ THROWS HER ARMS UP AND FLEXES ]

DEMON JUICE.

[Snaps a pic with his phone.]

Oh my god. Dude.

[ cackles and flops over ]

Man. That was real dumb.

You kidding? That was the best thing I seen all week.

Good, I was due for something totally nonsensical.

Man, hard to top that, on the nonsense scale. That bubble, man.

Magic Man's totally weird. And totally crazy. Glad we got Jake's sandwich back though.

Yeah, for real. Sucks that he just waltzed in and took it.

Yeah. Think that dude's been around for a while too. Not crazy familiar with him though.

You think you ran into him before?

Yeah, definitely. I mean, obviously I don't remember if it was any like... meaningful way or somethin'. But I'm a thousand years old. It'd be pretty weird if I didn't know some powerful magicians and junk at least in passing.

I guess that checks out.

Guess I'm more familiar with the Ice King, but...

Anyway, it's not like I'm friends with any of 'em. Magic makes you crazy.

For real?

... yeah. Drove me crazy for a bit too, when I still mortal. Cuz I hadn't "paid a price".

All those memories I got, killing the vamps? Feel real weird, like all I wanted was power, y'know? Just power and to kill them all.

...jesus. That sounds awful.

Were you okay?

Ha! Clearly not, cuz I'm still like this a thousand years later!

[ a pause, sobering a little. ]

... but I paid my price. So I'm not as wacked out as Magic Man or the Ice King. And so far as I can tell from my memories, I'm pretty content being the Vampire Queen. So I ain't lookin' for more power or nothin'.