Plot Dump the Second

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

Who: All idols interested in an info dump
Where: Dissonance and Lobby
When: Day 70 evening

[Evening idols, you're going to get a Dissonance message on your phones from a certain asshole on Future is Now]

CEO : Now that the apocalypse has been averted.
CEO : And our halls have been graced by not one, but two new units.
CEO : How about a little check-in on what we do know about our little glass prison?
CEO : As always, those who enjoy living their little puppet lives need not apply.
CEO : And no Lives allowed.
CEO : For what little that is probably worth.

[For those that do stop by, feel free to pick up the latest summary of what people know about Idol Hell]

[[OOC: Feel free to just assume your character picked up an information pamphlet without tagging in if you like]]

Comments

[criminaljustice]

[... hnnn... tapping her on the shoulder]

Remember how I said there was a thing I needed to tell you later?

Now a good time?

[rollplayinghouse]

...Sure. Do you want to go somewhere?

[criminaljustice]

Yeah... somewhere without cameras, probably...

[noticeable cameras, anyway]

[rollplayinghouse]

For as much as that will help. Your room or mine?

[criminaljustice]

Yours, I guess.

[rollplayinghouse]

Alright.

[heading for the elevators]

[criminaljustice]

[following and leaning against the wall once the elevator does arrive.]

Sorry it's sudden like this... just thought that the updated info made it a good time...

[rollplayinghouse]

It's fine. You don't have to apologize for something like that.

[criminaljustice]

[shrugs a bit]

I guess not. Probably got in the habit of apologizing after making the rounds today or something.

[rollplayinghouse]

[departing the elevator and heading into Taisho]

How did that go?

[criminaljustice]

... not great.

[looking tired just thinking about it.]

I don't have a leg to stand on. And I'm at a loss of what to do, in the end. There's only so much I can do without stepping all over the wishes of the injured parties... again.

[sighs and rubbing at his forehead.]

I'm willing to try, still. But... some of them, it might not be repairable.

[rollplayinghouse]

It might not be, that's true.

The best thing is probably just to pay attention to their wishes and try to do what they want. To help where you can help... or just leave them alone, if that's all you can do.

[criminaljustice]

Yeah, that's pretty much what I was figuring...

[rollplayinghouse]

[shrugs, like idk what you expected dude.

and then heads back into her room]

[criminaljustice]

[people to just put him out of his misery and be clear they want nothing to do with him anymore?

but once they're in his room, he just. leans against a wall, rubbing tiredly at his eyes]

[rollplayinghouse]

...You can't act all on your own like no one else's opinion matters and then act disappointed that they have a low opinion of you afterwards. Get over yourself, it's not the end of the world if people are mad at you.

[that's all she really wants to say on that subject, though, so she sits on the bed]

So what's this about?

[criminaljustice]

I'm allowed to feel what I feel, Maki.

[and what he feels is like shit. but also tired of being told to get over himself like there's a himself to even get over.]

And this is about Asmodeus.

[rollplayinghouse]

About what he said?

[criminaljustice]

... yeah.

[crossing his arms a bit, kind of more in a defensive, containing of self manner than anything truly closed off.]

He basically said... given a few more weeks, and I'd be on the mark for him. But since we didn't have a few weeks at the time... I'd still do.

[rollplayinghouse]

On the mark? Is that about... vengeance, somehow?

[criminaljustice]

[... nods, a bit.]

The reason I chose to summon Asmodeus and not Pythia... was because I figured Pythia might not like someone like me. And... considering the things I've done when not in my right mind... the want for vengeance and all...

Maki... I... tortured someone to death. In his damn summer house.

I think I might have... always been a candidate since then. And he also said, "the hard part isn't catching my eye".

[rollplayinghouse]

...

Joker. You weren't yourself in that house. You can't count that.

You've been so against taking vengeance for anything here that I've had to tell you it's okay to be mad at people who tried to emotionally manipulate you into sacrificing yourself, or people who attacked your team because they thought you could take it, or anything.

If he thinks you're a good candidate for vengeance he hasn't really been paying attention.

[criminaljustice]

No, that's the thing.

I've been so adverse to those things... because it's easy for me to go in that direction.

It's not like I wasn't getting more and more wanting for some payback for how Bad End kept getting hit in games. And when it came to everyone fading and the world ending--he got so damn interested when I honestly wanted to kill him. Every time, just so damn excited...

[feels gross just thinking about it...]

[rollplayinghouse]

[Maki rolls her eyes and annoyance rises in her voice]

It it not easy for you to go that direction, because you haven't done it. Despite intense amounts of trauma and constant, ridiculous pressure, on both you and people you care about, you haven't done it. Having the urge doesn't mean anything. Being angry when your people keep dying in front of you is pretty sensible. Wanting to kill the demon who's trying to kill everyone and destroy the world is a reasonable reaction.

Stop fucking acting like you've got some terrible thing lurking within you because you were possessed by a ghost once and you have normal human reactions to things.

If you want to talk about vengeance, about five seconds after you went into that mirror I stabbed E to death. I was fully in my right mind for that. I've pinned you to a wall and strangled you. I stabbed my own unitmate. I'd probably be a way better choice for him.

[criminaljustice]

It's not about where your mind's at, it's where your heart is.

And I'm not saying that I'd be the better candidate over you. I'm not trying to make this into a contest!

But I'd wish you'd listen to me when I'm telling you that it takes a lot of effort on my part not to do those things. That's why I'm always so conflicted about whether I'm having a normal reaction or not--maybe the time in that house doesn't count, but it's not like that's been the only time I've thought about taking a knife to someone's gut and yanking out their organs, either! Because I know what it feels like--I know how easy it would be to.

So just... I'm not an assassin, but I'm not as harmless as you make me out to be, either. And I'm just fucking scared of what kind of person this place can make me into, especially when I specifically summoned a demon like that, okay?

Maybe I don't have a right to be, but I am.