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Who: Everyone
Where: wherever there's a TV and then, dining hall
When: Day 7, a respectable time in the morning when most people are up and at 'em

[LIVE ALERT!

the cameras zoom in on your boy who seems more cheered than yesterday. maybe it has something to do with yet another cinderblock he's holding as he stands at the game tower?]

Let's meet up. Talk things over. Dining hall in thirty.

Oh, and sorry about the noise.

[because of course it's not a BE=DE live if you're not breaking shit. and windows are loud when they break.

the live cuts off pretty quick after he does a few more (less noisy) minor damages. mostly seems to be just wasting time kicking holes in walls after climbing in through the rebroken window.

Do you attend?]

The Basics | YIKES they have a lottery of bad | SensitIV healing plans | What If No One Shows Up To Games? | B can grow things! | Hiryuu organizing studying the environment/repair effects | Taisho LIVE! for volunteering in Hiryuu's plan | We Can't Trust Anything And The Hosts Have A LOT Of Power | Snack Break!!! | Plottings for meeting with the hosts?

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[Oni did good, but Boss is going with a full-on bow because man it just feels that bad. ~~i don't have an icon for this but just go with it~~]

More than just saying "I'm sorry"... even if it wasn't intended the way it happened, what was said, how it was said, and the timing of it was all wrong and shouldn't have been said at all. And I reacted poorly even after.

I don't have any defense, so... I'm sorry. And I'll understand if you all will just want to leave it at this.

. . .

Did you mean any of what you said, Boss-san?

... not the way I said it. I was very careless and frivolous with the actual sentiment, because I knew Oni would understood how it was meant--forgetting my positioning at the time and that that way of speaking isn't appropriate.

I don't want to... subjugate anyone. And I know it's hypocritical for me to say I want to stop people from feeling the need to take risks when they feel it's necessary, when I'm just as guilty. I don't think anyone is wrong for feeling that way, and I don't think Heart Soldier Senshi is so careless with that sort of decision. Or that they make things difficult for Wire--that was a poor joke because I know Oni likes Wire.

[sorry, Oni, bussing you on that one.]

I was just stupid about it. And even got defensive with Hiryuu when she was in the right. So... I don't have any excuse for it, like I said.

But. I do want to make it up to you guys, if you'll allow for it. Because I do like the people on Heart Soldier Senshi and because I know it wasn't an easy choice for Spidey to make then--it's not like I reacted quick enough then, either.

[Stares at him for a long moment, considering him carefully.]

It sounds like you understand what you did wrong, and that you regret it.

But tell me. If that wasn’t how you meant it, then what way did you mean your comments? What exactly was your sentiment supposed to be?

... I was thinking of the situation like how I would if Heart Soldier Senshi were like my unit. Hiryuu was right in that I wasn't considering Heart Soldier Senshi has their own ways of doing things. And while I have checked in on Spidey and Hurricane after the first game... it wasn't right for me to just make assumptions.

I guess I just hate the idea of splitting us into groups when it comes to how we'd react to that sort of situation, so I'd want to keep anyone from having to make that decision, if I could help it.

. . .

I don't believe that, I'm sorry. I can believe that you wanted to think of us as a community, and that what you said was an unconscious thought meant as a joke, but you lumped us all together as one Unit. You were the one saying it should be assumed we would all think and act the same way. You were the one treating all of Heart Soldier Senshi's members, apart from Wire-san, as if we were all going to act the same way and were the problem children that needed to be cared for.

[He can feel himself getting aggressive and stops there, taking a deep breath before continuing.]

When you say, even as a joke, that Heart Soldier Senshi as a collective are children that need help with taking care of themselves, and you are the ones in a position to provide that help, then you are automatically differentiating us from you. Perhaps you and Oni-san weren't thinking about yourselves in terms of a Unit, but you certainly lumped us all together. Whether intentional or not, conscious thought or not, 'let's not assume all of them haven't reached rebellious teenage stage' is a statement of division and superiority. We were not individuals to you, and we were not members of the community as a whole. We were 'them', with no right of choice. I don't think that's what you want either, I believe you when you say you want to keep anyone from making that decision, but it's what you said.

Edited 2018-06-27 21:00 (UTC)

Mori... that line... was the biggest joke.

The point of it is that me, someone who is at that rebellious stage himself, is daring to say it about other people. I'm the punchline there.

It's not a joke that was appropriate and I know it hurt people when I didn't intend for it to be that way, so I'm sorry that it didn't carry over and that it do do harm.

But you have a right to feel how you feel and you have every right to doubt what I say or what I do going forward. So I won't object if you doubt what I say in response to that, also.

Edited 2018-06-27 21:14 (UTC)

I know that was a joke, Boss-san. I know that whole thing was a joke to you.

[Boss himself says that it being a joke doesn't excuse it, so Mori doesn't repeat it, but he wants it stated that he is well aware how much of a joke mocking them was.]

I'm going to be honest Boss-san. This does make it difficult to trust you. I know that was a joke, and that you two didn't mean to be so public about it. I know that's just how you interact with each other, and you didn't intend to publicly mock us.

But it means you think it's okay to talk about us like that behind our backs.

[and telling the truth that this was the first time they've ever really talked about them is a lost cause because trust issues, huh.]

... then I'll just have to work hard to earn that trust, and the way things look with this place, that might be a long time. Or never. It's up to you, ultimately. And I haven't done myself any favors.

In the meantime, what I can do is apologize for my jokes and promise it won't happen again. In public or private.

[what if just no jokes.]

Try your best Boss-san. I can't ask anything more of you than what you've already offered.

I'll accept your apology, but I can't speak on the rest of Heart Soldier Senshi's behalf. Good luck with them.

Yeah... thanks. I'll do my best.

[what if just have Hiryuu deck him. that seems way easier.]