Mingle time!

[heavyliesthecrown]

Who: Idols
Where: Everywhere
When: Day 443; Whenever

[ So I heard we got some newbies. Let's release them into the wild! ]

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[bondsofsuffering]

[He hums thoughtfully as they enter the dorm, crouching to set her down on the nearest chair.]

...I think I'll pass this time. If your feelings return and you decide you still want to talk to me, you can call me over then.

[sangreine]

[ Deposited into a chair, but she looks a hint confused ]

I think I'd be okay even if I could feel things. You explained it. And you brought me back here, there has to be something I can do.

[bondsofsuffering]

Then what you can do for me is rest and get back to me later. Because if we just keep talking while you're like this... well, it feels a little like taking advantage of you while you're not fully yourself, you know?

[sangreine]

It's a good way to get past my temper?

[ She manages a tiny smile, like she isn't sure if what she said is funny ]

I can't feel much but I can still not talk if I don't want to. You didn't do anything like take advantage.

[bondsofsuffering]

That's one way, for sure. Unless... do you think you'd feel lonely if I left you now?

[sangreine]

I'm always lonely when I'm not with someone, so maybe.

I don't really like being in here right now though, but I guess... I have to? [ She looks at him to make sure. ]

[bondsofsuffering]

[Well crap.]

...Yeah, you have to.

[...Hesitantly sitting himself down in a chair, too.]

[sangreine]

Okay.

...Why? [ Her only experience with this is handshake consequences. ]

[bondsofsuffering]

The fans are struggling to associate you with your unit. Have you not been sleeping here lately?

[sangreine]

[ A tiny, tiny huff (which would be a full on pout any other time) ]

I prefer to sleep with other people, so I've been doing that.

How would the fans know where I sleep? I thought there weren't cameras in the dorms. [ Was that a lie? She wouldn't be surprised. ]

[bondsofsuffering]

Not in the dorms, but they can see you in the hotel common areas, too. If they haven't seen you on the landing, they'll know you haven't been back.

There aren't any cameras in the dorms, but everywhere outside of them is fair game, including the balcony.

[sangreine]

Considering the type of mail they send, you'd think they wanted us to get laid. [ It is a loss to the world that she has to say this without any emoting whatsoever. ]

I've been bunking with other people off and on for a while and this never happened before.

[bondsofsuffering]

They're among the damned - even their own senses of self can be... lacking. I'm not sure they can fully recognize us if we aren't associating with our own units.

[sangreine]

I guess the lacey corset isn't enough. [ This was probably an attempt at sarcasm, but it comes out flat of course ]

How often do you have to stay put to avoid this? It can't be all the time, I'd have disappeared weeks ago. [ She's only been here a handful of weeks, but still. ]

[bondsofsuffering]

As long as you spend the night at your dorm every three days, it isn't a problem. Maybe you could invite them over to stay with you on those nights instead?

[sangreine]

Oh.

[ She looks over in the direction of the bedrooms, and even emotionless it's clear that she's anxious about the idea of needing to stay there. ]

I guess I could. If I have to.

[bondsofsuffering]

...Do you not like sleeping here?

[sangreine]

Not anymore. I was trying to help someone understand me better and we were in my room discussing things, and it went really badly.

[ Any other time she wouldn't have admitted it for fear of it being completely stupid. But this involves a very deep trauma and rejection and admitting things she never told anyone and the combination was devastating. ]

[bondsofsuffering]

So being in your room reminds you of that instance?

[Hmmm...]

[sangreine]

Mmhmm.

I could... sleep in the Rainy Day room?

[bondsofsuffering]

That's a good alternative. And you could even call a friend to ask them to rest with you here for the night, if it feels too lonely.

[sangreine]

For some reason it seems easier to stay with other people than to ask anyone to stay here.

[ Which is. Weird. ]

[bondsofsuffering]

I bet there's people who would if you asked, though. Want me to help you call someone over now?

[sangreine]

You don't have to do that.

[bondsofsuffering]

I want to.