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[wotanon]

Who; Anybody
Where; Wherever
When; Day 435

[ it's time for some memory roulette,
ARE YOU FEELING LUCKY?! ]

Comments

Re: witnesses okay

[crossmyheartandhope]

I mean...maybe not universal.

But more common than you'd think, around here.

Re: witnesses okay

[sangreine]

I guess it would be. Most people do a good job hiding it, or at least better. I'll work on it.

Re: witnesses okay

[crossmyheartandhope]

How come?

You don't gotta hide what you're feeling.

Re: witnesses okay

[sangreine]

[ She laughs, but it's humorless. ]

I absolutely do. Trust me.

Re: witnesses okay

[crossmyheartandhope]

How come?

...ain't gonna lie, everyone always gets on me to quit. They say it's better not to, like... bury stuff down.

Re: witnesses okay

[sangreine]

There's more to being what I am than occasionally drinking blood. If I lose control of myself, I could hurt a lot of people. I have hurt a lot of people, defenseless people. Children. I might let loose about what I'm feeling, but I can never give in all the way or I'm risking everyone around me.

So I'm the last person who should give advice about this. But for what it's worth, I don't think there's anything wrong with however anyone needs to deal with things. I'd be a hypocrite whatever I tried to tell you. If what you're doing works for you, then everyone else needs to accept that.

Re: witnesses okay

[crossmyheartandhope]

Ah... yeah.

I guess so, yeah.

Sorry, I didn't mean to like - go digging or nothing.

Re: witnesses okay

[sangreine]

You weren't. And even if you were, people here have a right to know, you more than most. [ For reasons they discussed in Zhongli's dream world or whatever it's called. ] I don't mind people knowing. I do mind people trying to tell me it can't possibly be that bad, which you haven't done. So it's fine, really.

We're all just doing our best with all this, right?

Re: witnesses okay

[crossmyheartandhope]

Yeah... yeah. Just making it through the next day.

Re: witnesses okay

[sangreine]

Something like that. [ Or, you know, not making it. But they shouldn't go there, definitely not. ]

Re: witnesses okay

[crossmyheartandhope]

Exactly like that. One foot in front of the other, right?

Re: witnesses okay

[sangreine]

[ It feels a little like she's being talked into this. Unsuccessfully. So she'll flex her "working on hiding things better" muscles with a little white lie. ]

Mm, right.

Re: witnesses okay

[crossmyheartandhope]

...anyways.

You planning on playing some more?

Re: witnesses okay

[sangreine]

I don't know. Maybe. I won't make you stay and listen, don't worry.

Re: witnesses okay

[crossmyheartandhope]

...I thought you wanted company?

Re: witnesses okay

[sangreine]

I do... but listening to someone play the violin isn't exactly interesting, so I thought...

Re: witnesses okay

[crossmyheartandhope]

Oh. Uh. Well... we can go somewhere else if you wanna?

Or if you ain't done, I don't mind sticking around some.

Re: witnesses okay

[sangreine]

I could try one more song, if you're sure you don't mind. Any type of things you like to hear? I'll at least attempt not to be so boring. I don't remember the names of the songs, but if you describe it...

[ Leaning down to get her violin and bow, and saws out a couple tuning notes as she speaks, then chords, then a simple run to warm back up. ]

Re: witnesses okay

[crossmyheartandhope]

Oh. I mean... I dunno a whole lot about classical music.

Something, like... upbeat, I guess?

Re: witnesses okay

[sangreine]

I have one that starts pretty upbeat, it does get a little slower in parts but I can stop if it bothers you.

I found this at the karaoke bar, it didn't have lyrics so I skipped it. But I saved the background orchestra to my phone so at least you have something else to listen to if I butcher it. [ Messes with her phone for a second, cranks up the volume, and it plays the rest of the piece except the violin solo, which she absolutely does the opposite of butcher. She sure plays with a lot of feeling, but it's all muscle memory; her face is impassive and far away. ]

Re: witnesses okay

[crossmyheartandhope]

[Listens all the way through]

...whoa.

Re: witnesses okay

[sangreine]

[ She blinks, as if just remembering he was there, and then looks genuinely embarrassed, which is not a typical sight. ]

...What?

Re: witnesses okay

[crossmyheartandhope]

Sounded awesome.

Re: witnesses okay

[sangreine]

-- oh. [ Yeah, she knows. It brings her absolutely no joy. So changing the subject and forcing a smile. ]

And here I can't even cook. I must have had some weird monster upbringing.

Re: witnesses okay

[crossmyheartandhope]

It's just, different people learn different stuff, I guess.