Broacasted memories catchall post

[afailedmurder]

Who: Whoever is brave/crazy/cheap enough to go for the memory broadcast option
Where: A screen near you
When: Day 2, post-game-ish

Comments

Re: Oni - memory 1

[sancrimony]

. . . I don't know.

[ a little fretful, pulling at the hem of his skirt ]

Is it . . . ?

Re: Oni - memory 1

[grandschemed]

I think so.

Re: Oni - memory 1

[sancrimony]

But - say that does happen, then. Eventually . . . I'm sure that there will be a lot of Games, in this career. How long should I hold them in contempt? How much more contempt will I have to hold? Eventually, will I have nothing but ill will toward them?

. . . . Isn't that painful?

Re: Oni - memory 1

[grandschemed]

Yer allowed to forgive'n forget and all that. But it depends -- s'not just black and white. If someone hurt someone ya loved wouldn't you be justified in bein' upset for a while?

Re: Oni - memory 1

[sancrimony]

. . . I would be upset over that. Would it be justified?

Re: Oni - memory 1

[grandschemed]

'Course, that's my whole point. You should be actin' the same way if you got hurt too.

Re: Oni - memory 1

[sancrimony]

Ah . . . I see. It feels a little different when it comes to me, though.

Re: Oni - memory 1

[grandschemed]

Why? D'you think you matter less?

Re: Oni - memory 1

[sancrimony]

Uhm - thinking about mattering less or more is . . . not really something that I was thinking of, but. . .

[ that would require being aware of any self value in the first place, ]

No, rather - it isn't something I have yet, but my unit's granted abilities are all focused around healing. So - at least for myself, the injuries would not matter much at all, and otherwise I don't really have a problem with it. . .

Re: Oni - memory 1

[grandschemed]

Wouldn't that be true for the rest of your unit, too? But you'd still be upset if they got hurt.

Re: Oni - memory 1

[sancrimony]

Well - my unitmates feel a bit more . . . I think they'd be more upset by it, in general. But I don't really have the same sort of common sense, so. . .

Re: Oni - memory 1

[grandschemed]

And ya don't think they'd get upset if you got hurt?

Re: Oni - memory 1

[sancrimony]

Well, I didn't say that I would just let it happen - I'm sure they would be upset, so it isn't like I won't try to be careful. But if it does happen, I don't think I should need to be upset over it.

Re: Oni - memory 1

[grandschemed]

[ he exhales ]

You're really goddamn stubborn about all this, y'know that?

Re: Oni - memory 1

[sancrimony]

. . . . Sorry about that.

Re: Oni - memory 1

[grandschemed]

I'm not gonna go too hard on ya. But ya really can't live like that.

Re: Oni - memory 1

[sancrimony]

How should I live?

Re: Oni - memory 1

[grandschemed]

How 'bout givin' half a shit about yourself?

Re: Oni - memory 1

[sancrimony]

Don't I? Must it really be that I don't care about myself?

[ how do you care about, ]

Re: Oni - memory 1

[grandschemed]

If ya do yer sure as hell not showin' it.

Re: Oni - memory 1

[sancrimony]

How. . . How do I do that?

Re: Oni - memory 1

[grandschemed]

Show it, or actually care 'bout yourself?

Re: Oni - memory 1

[sancrimony]

. . . Both . . . ?

Re: Oni - memory 1

[grandschemed]

... Maybe -- just think about how upset you'd be if yer unit got hurt. Can ya think the same way about yourself?

Re: Oni - memory 1

[sancrimony]

. . . I'll try. . . ?