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[nohalation]

Who: FiN + visitors?
Where: FiN dorm!!
When: Day 288 afternoon

[Things are probably calming down now!! Right? Right?]

Comments

[nohalation]

1/3

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

[Holy shit, he won!]

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

[I mean...]

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

Serves you right for doubting me.

[nohalation]

... you did play very well. [isnt this game mostly random] But that does not mean you will win next time!!

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

Ah ah ah.

No rematch until I get my question.

That was the bet.

[nohalation]

Okay, okay, you are right.

[SIGH.]

What is the question! I will answer with truth but extra truth!

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

Do you know what you want? In regards to Shogun and Sabre and Red and whoever else you have developed feelings for?

1/4 i think

[nohalation]

[Oh.

She sits there for a moment, thinking.]

Yes and no?

Little Red is always going to be very complicated, I think. I love her dearly, but I also cannot tolerate killing so we might always be at odds with one another. That doesn’t mean I love her any less though, and it is easier to just accept that I can both love and hate the things she tries to do at the same time. I guess I would want her to stop doing such terrible things before I dare to want anything else so I have to achieve that first.

2/4

[nohalation]

[taps chin]

And Sashay and Sabre are very cute and I like them a whole lot, but it is kind of sudden and new! It is hard to think of what I want because I do not know what they would want either! Sashay does not know what they want because they are a weapon so it is hard for them to want anything for themselves, I think. And Sabre, I think is going through a lot with Adora and Arya and Kohime so I do not think she knows what she wants either.

So I simply enjoy how things are now, and I will see where things go.

3/4

[nohalation]

...I also want to talk to Peanut and Primrose again. I am certain they love me like I love them, but what they want to do about that ... I have to talk to them. I have to take them out of Hell and take them home first.

With Peanut whom I’ve known since I was very little, she was the reason I was able to learn what love could be like. She means so much to me, I do not know if I could live happily if she was not by my side, but I want her to be happy too.

With Primrose, it is like Sabre and Sashay with how the feelings feel a little new so I will look forward to what happens, but the feelings are also a little bit deeper because we have gone through so much together.

4/4

[nohalation]

...the feelings with Sho are also kind of new, but you know, Intensity, he has already talked about the future with me. Talking of dreams about traveling the world and beyond, visiting all of FiN and our friends ... he had even considered the fact that I would be worried about leaving behind my kingdom. He is already ready to stay in Halation for several years until I am ready to travel with him.

I am not someone who is very good at thinking about the future. In fact, I am very afraid of it. But for once, I started wondering if it would be okay if I allowed myself to think about it.

So if you asked me what I wanted with Sho, I would be tempted to say a future with him. A future where we can simply travel together.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

[Starts counting those off of on her fingers as she talks. That's 6 people, Angel! One more and she's set for every day of the fucking week.]

That's a lot of things to manage while you're still trying to figure out yourself.

[nohalation]

It did happen so very quickly.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

Who knew all it took was stealing three units worth of sex drive?

[nohalation]

Who knew!

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

And you're not worried about any of them being jealous?

[nohalation]

Hmmm . . . I have not thought too hard about it because none of them had said anything.

[taps chin]

I will simply ask them.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

Jealousy is considered an unfavorable trait. What does a person have to gain by telling someone they're jealous?

[nohalation]

If you do not tell someone, how will someone know?

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

Exactly.

[nohalation]

...

I should ask them to make sure.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

[Pats her head]

Good girl.

[nohalation]

[nodnod!!!]

Does Intensity get jealous?

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

All the time.