ann "let me eat cake" takamaki (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
fullbodied) wrote in ![[community profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png)
imeeji_frontstage2020-05-20 07:37 pm
fullbodied) wrote in imeeji_frontstage2020-05-20 07:37 pm
(no subject)
Who: Wild City and pack???
Where: Wild City, yo
When: POST... GAME.... and on. Late 240?
[so everyone is limping home from a game they won.
it's fine!]
Where: Wild City, yo
When: POST... GAME.... and on. Late 240?
[so everyone is limping home from a game they won.
it's fine!]
1/2
no subject
avoids eye contact. ]
no subject
[ well first things first, running up to hug her ]
1/2
...
...
hugging back, tightly ]
Amaranth I'm sorrryyyyyyyyyyyyyy it really wasn't my fault I promise I mean I could've tried harder to stop it probably but I just got struck by lightning while I was trapped in a garbage can and my body doesn't really handle electricity that well I mean most bodies don't but mine has a bunch of circuitry and stuff so it really doesn't handle it well and then suddenly there was blood everywhere and that made me hungry and Iris got turned into an elf and was being weird and laughing about it and that was my fault definitely because I wanted to advertise her to everyone but they didn't like it and we both got hurt because of that and it was really just this whole thing and it probably would've been better if I brought my rifle with me but then who would I have shot neither option was good I guess I could've blinded everyone maybe but but but
no subject
no subject
Shhh, it's alright. [ petting her hair ]
No one person should have to deal with that all by herself. I know you must have done your very best.
no subject
I could've done my better best! I can always do better, otherwise I'd never get anything good done!
no subject
You get all sorts of good done.
But... you know, it makes me more proud of you—knowing that you still want to do more.
[ pet pet ] We'll figure things out together.
no subject
[ she sighs in relief, going a bit limp - though she does nuzzle against Amaranth's hand. ]
Is...it okay if I don't come home for a bit? I don't...really wanna go right now. 'Cause you have to, um...work stuff out with John, right?
no subject
I do.
[ a twinge of guilt ] Are you worried about us arguing?
no subject
Yeah. And it's not like I think you shouldn't or anything. Um, it's unfair that he says things like you can't fight or I can't carry my rifle because those are bad and hurting people is bad no matter what, but he can just give people we're supposed to be helping fatal stab wounds.
But I don't wanna see anymore fighting when it's people I'm supposed to be protecting. Not when it's - angry like that.
no subject
well, time to hold her close again. ]
Sometimes I really do wish I could yell at him. Or just— [ a soft laugh ] —punch him in the jaw and be done with it. But I know it wouldn't change anything—or probably it would make it worse.
And I don't want all of you to have to see it, either. Is it alright for me to promise to you that I won't get angry with John in that bad way?
no subject
[ she speaks softly, in the calm and flowing way she does when she's actually clearheaded but not because she's reciting something she's remembered. ]
I don't like it here. I really, really hate it? I hated it in that room, too. They're not scared of me, but they also don't actually like me. It's not that they're neutral, so - I don't really know how to describe it. Nychta is nice, and I like Challah a lot, but the rest of them...
...
I wanna go visit Aradia and Req. I have a lot of stuff to think about, and I'm not sure it's stuff family can help with. 'Cause I know how family feels about me, for sure. Um...so. You don't have to hold back on my behalf, okay? If I was in your position, if I was someone who could remember everything they've experienced, if I was someone who didn't break herself apart a million times and only put herself back together half that - I think I'd probably have just killed him right there in that room. That'd have been the right thing to do. Only he'd be hurt, then. And we could focus on saving others.
So if you have to be harsh, I believe that's still the right thing to do.
no subject
More people should see how much you care.
I'm realizing now that there is so much you have been through which I don't know about, and don't yet understand. I hope you will trust me with those things, someday.
But yes, of course you can go visit them. I really hope it is a comfort—you deserve that.
no subject
Thanks. I love you a lot, Amaranth.
[ she sniffles a little, squeezing tightly. ]