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Who: Wild City and pack???
Where: Wild City, yo
When: POST... GAME.... and on. Late 240?

[so everyone is limping home from a game they won.

it's fine!]

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I'M SORRRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

[ oh no this is so much and she doesn't even know what "circuitry" is; maybe it has something to do with being a vampire? ]

Shhh, it's alright. [ petting her hair ]

No one person should have to deal with that all by herself. I know you must have done your very best.

[ waahHHHHH ]

I could've done my better best! I can always do better, otherwise I'd never get anything good done!

[ pet pet pet ]

You get all sorts of good done.
But... you know, it makes me more proud of you—knowing that you still want to do more.

[ pet pet ] We'll figure things out together.

Oh, um...I'm glad. Thank you.

[ she sighs in relief, going a bit limp - though she does nuzzle against Amaranth's hand. ]

Is...it okay if I don't come home for a bit? I don't...really wanna go right now. 'Cause you have to, um...work stuff out with John, right?

[ she lets the embrace relax a bit—enough to let Dahlia step free if she likes ]

I do.
[ a twinge of guilt ] Are you worried about us arguing?

[ she doesn't step away at all. in fact, she just buries her face for a bit before speaking again ]

Yeah. And it's not like I think you shouldn't or anything. Um, it's unfair that he says things like you can't fight or I can't carry my rifle because those are bad and hurting people is bad no matter what, but he can just give people we're supposed to be helping fatal stab wounds.

But I don't wanna see anymore fighting when it's people I'm supposed to be protecting. Not when it's - angry like that.

[ oh.

well, time to hold her close again. ]

Sometimes I really do wish I could yell at him. Or just— [ a soft laugh ] —punch him in the jaw and be done with it. But I know it wouldn't change anything—or probably it would make it worse.

And I don't want all of you to have to see it, either. Is it alright for me to promise to you that I won't get angry with John in that bad way?

You don't have to. If it would make something better - if it'll make him listen to you more, or if it'll make him not hurt someone for no reason next time - it's important for you to do what you need to.

[ she speaks softly, in the calm and flowing way she does when she's actually clearheaded but not because she's reciting something she's remembered. ]

I don't like it here. I really, really hate it? I hated it in that room, too. They're not scared of me, but they also don't actually like me. It's not that they're neutral, so - I don't really know how to describe it. Nychta is nice, and I like Challah a lot, but the rest of them...

...

I wanna go visit Aradia and Req. I have a lot of stuff to think about, and I'm not sure it's stuff family can help with. 'Cause I know how family feels about me, for sure. Um...so. You don't have to hold back on my behalf, okay? If I was in your position, if I was someone who could remember everything they've experienced, if I was someone who didn't break herself apart a million times and only put herself back together half that - I think I'd probably have just killed him right there in that room. That'd have been the right thing to do. Only he'd be hurt, then. And we could focus on saving others.

So if you have to be harsh, I believe that's still the right thing to do.

.........I love you, Dahlia. So much.
More people should see how much you care.

I'm realizing now that there is so much you have been through which I don't know about, and don't yet understand. I hope you will trust me with those things, someday.

But yes, of course you can go visit them. I really hope it is a comfort—you deserve that.

...

Thanks. I love you a lot, Amaranth.

[ she sniffles a little, squeezing tightly. ]

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