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[arealeyeopener]

Who: future is now
Where: the most high tech dorms
When: Day 195, post game

[mother is here for you, children

or well, he at least has brought you home. now rest]

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[bluescreenwhitedragon]

[Why are they always picking on the kid.

Also why is it always his throat]

...

Rough match?

[asonoficeandfire]

[isn't it lucky there are no strangulation marks from his hallucination?

he blinks at Intensity's voice and looks up, bewildered, as if he didn't expect him to talk to him. startled? for sure]

...I... don't know?

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

Duality.

Do you remember the game?

[asonoficeandfire]

[he winces, shoulders drawing up slightly]

Of course I do...

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

I'm not belittling you. It wouldn't be the first time that the producers hit someone with a fresh batch of amnesia.

[asonoficeandfire]

... I haven't forgotten anything.

[he wishes he had]

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

So do you want to talk about how you got those scars?

[asonoficeandfire]

A bucket of boiling water.

A punishment, because I murdered everyone when I should have protected them. I was... angry.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

And who did you murder again?

[asonoficeandfire]

Everyone. I... know it wasn't real, but I can't get this feeling to go away. I'm the worst.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

[Why they always gotta punch Duality in his self esteem, huh?]

What would make you feel not the worst?

[asonoficeandfire]

I don't know. There's no point. I don't deserve it anyway.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

Guilt is not the same as atonement.

[asonoficeandfire]

I got a punishment for it.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

That doesn't equal things out either.

...

You didn't murder anyone.

[asonoficeandfire]

... but it felt real.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

I know.

But the reality of the situation is that is was fake. Perhaps more intense than the usual nightmare, but no different.

[asonoficeandfire]

... I know. There's something that sticks, though. I can't... it's hard to not think about it.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

Sounds like you need a distraction.

[asonoficeandfire]

... I was going to sleep. Away from people.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

Away from all people? Or just a change of scenery from this place?

[asonoficeandfire]

I have a place to stay that isn't here.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

Check in if you're gone for more than 48 hours. Otherwise mom will worry.

[asonoficeandfire]

[he's going to turn his phone off, but he hesitantly nods]

... if you insist.

[his brain ghost says it doesn't matter but he'll do his best to!]

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

You don't want me to have to go look for you. It'll be embarrassing.