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Who: Peps
Where: PepPep
When: Morning, Day 132

[ It's been a few days since the Pep fiasco and everyone seems to have settled into a more comfortable lull. Or at least they want everyone to think they have. How goes, fellow Peps? ]

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No?

If you think about it, both of us want try and protect others, even if it comes at personal expense. The only difference is that you're including us in the list of people you want to protect.

Would you say that's accurate?

[ Considers as he finishes his latest dye job ]

... yeah, it's close.

Close?

[starts folding the hair into the foil]

Yeah. You all are pretty selfless people. I'm the opposite. Knight or not.

How so?

[fold fold oops unfold refold]

Don't worry so much about how it looks. You just want to make sure all the hair's in there.

I think I got it this time! My hands are getting slippery.

What makes you think you're the opposite of selfless?

... I do things because I want to make others happy. Because that way I can share it. And I can stop thinking about all the things that terrify me when I'm alone. The monster game. Yugi dying again and again. My insanity. My memories. My friends dying every time. How much I miss people back home. How lonely it can be here. How much I just want...

[waits for him to finish]

[ Bites lip and goes onto another bit of hair ]

Is it a secret?

[getting another piece of foil]

... I don't know how to talk about it. I guess it just doesn't come up.

Is it something you'd like to talk about?

I don't know.

... it's kind of embarrassing.

Hm. Well, I won't force you to talk about it, but if you do feel like sharing, I promise not to judge.

You don't like it. I don't know if anyone here does.

Murder?

[ Laughs despite himself and finishes his latest section ]

No, I'm pretty sure there's people here who like murder.

That's true. Not even that is universally despised.

Is your secret desire worse than murder?

I'm going to hope not.

Then you don't have anything to worry about. Tell me, if you want.

... you don't like touching.

[???¿¿??? que ???¿???¿¿?]

Says who?

You don't do it.

I hug people all the time. I hugged like twenty people in the kissing game alone.

It's... true... that I wasn't used to touching people when I got here, but I've gotten a lot better about it since then...