Sad Peps Club House

[wonderlandgirl]

Who: Peps + (Un)invited Guests
Where: pep!pep! dorm
When: Day 129, Afternoon

[So, uh.

[Those were certainly some decisions we all made back there. Yup.

[Anyone for tea?]

Comments

[malignstar]

... I didn't want you to feel helpless. At least you got to feel like you could do something.

I guess it's not really possible for me to balance someone's emotional health and physical health. I'm not level-headed like you. I'm an emotional disaster.

[we_meet_again]

It doesn't have to be completely up to you to find that balance, though. It's something we can all work on, together.

Something I think would really help is to just... keep communication open. For all of us, not just you.

You told me our safety was important to you before, but I didn't understand how important it was until I saw you have a panic attack about it in the last round. It was kind of like how Dawn mostly kept to herself during the whole balloon game and then fell apart at the last minute, because we were all going in a direction she wasn't cool with. If we'd understood each other better at the outset, we might have been able to play in a way that prevented someone from having a meltdown. That's... that's what I want. For everyone in this unit to feel like they have a voice, and that their comfort is important, and that they matter. 'Cause if you can't have a voice in you own unit, then where?

So I'm really sorry I didn't understand you better, before. I'd like to make sure that doesn't happen again, as much as possible. Please... help me out? Please don't minimize the importance of your feelings. Please keep telling me how you feel until I get it.

[malignstar]

... I thought... you did. I thought this was just... important to you. Your way of fighting back.

[ Raking a hand through his hair and trembling slightly, as he grips at his necklace ]

And I thought I could... accept things for the sake of that. I honestly did. It just... the stakes were too high. And... I've never been that scared before. I didn't know what to do... When you said you didn't care about Lilith, I couldn't do it anymore. I couldn't tell myself this was worth it...

[we_meet_again]

It was important to me, but not more important than you.

I'll do my best to not put you in that situation any more. I'm sorry.

[malignstar]

[ Wants to tell him he doesn't have to do that, but the effect won't let him form the words. All he can manage is a pained: ]

Cobalt....

You don't have to apologize. It was a unit decision.

[we_meet_again]

You're part of this unit, too!

We'll find a better solution next time.

[malignstar]

[ Feels hella guilty right now... but also relieved. ]

... if that's okay with everyone.









Thank you.