Sad Peps Club House

[wonderlandgirl]

Who: Peps + (Un)invited Guests
Where: pep!pep! dorm
When: Day 129, Afternoon

[So, uh.

[Those were certainly some decisions we all made back there. Yup.

[Anyone for tea?]

Comments

Re: day 129, very late

[heroicsacrifeyes]

...Everyone has been feeling a lot of survivor's guilt lately. I guess... it came to a head.

Re: day 129, very late

[avestan]

If you'd been there... would you have stopped it?

Re: day 129, very late

[heroicsacrifeyes]

If I said yes, that would be an easy thing to say with hindsight. I don't know what happened in that room, or how everyone was feeling in the moment, or how anyone else played against them. I don't have any right to say how I could have changed things that happened in the past.

But, in the future... I want my team to value themselves. I want everyone to play in a way that they can live with. In a way that won't make them miserable afterwards, and this clearly wasn't it, so I wouldn't let it happen again. We have people on our team that want to live, and want to protect each other. I wouldn't let those voices be ignored either.

Re: day 129, very late

[avestan]

...I'm glad to hear that. Because I'll respect whatever choices you wanna make, but I want you to be safe more than anything.

Re: day 129, very late

[heroicsacrifeyes]

[Squeezes his hand and will just never ever mention any of her previous or future planned self sacrifices to him.]

I don't want to hurt anyone. And if there's anything that can be done to help the people I love, then I'll do it. But I don't want to die, and I don't want to watch my team die either. So don't worry. I won't stop trying.

Re: day 129, very late

[avestan]

[this is fine,]

That's all I wanted to hear.

[leans his head on her shoulder]

Thank you, SS.

Re: day 129, very late

[heroicsacrifeyes]

[Arm around his shoulder and cuddling up to him.]

It's alright. It must have been really stressful for you, I'm sorry.

Re: day 129, very late

[avestan]

[my entire life has been stressful for a while now]

Nothing I can't handle. Don't worry about it.

Re: day 129, very late

[heroicsacrifeyes]

[Fluffs his hair]

Of course I'll worry. That just can't be helped.

Re: day 129, very late

[avestan]

Mm, then we can both worry about each other.

Re: day 129, very late

[heroicsacrifeyes]

[Kisses him on the forehead]

That sounds like a good deal to me.

Re: day 129, very late

[avestan]

Yeah, me too.

[hesitating a bit]

...By the way. I dunno how much it's been bothering you, but. I cut things off with Ruler.

Re: day 129, very late

[heroicsacrifeyes]

You... Cut things off?

Re: day 129, very late

[avestan]

Yeah. I'm not involved with him anymore.

Re: day 129, very late

[heroicsacrifeyes]

[Quiet for a moment, contemplative]

Why? Did something happen?

Re: day 129, very late

[avestan]

...We had a talk, and I realised that me and him are just really bad for each other.

Re: day 129, very late

[heroicsacrifeyes]

I see... I know I was hesitant, about you two, but I know you cared about him a lot too... I’m sorry it didn’t work out.

Re: day 129, very late

[avestan]

Well, that's just how it goes.

And on the bright side, now I have more time to focus my attention on you.