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Who: ZRAEL and u
Where: zrael dorm
When: Day 115, nightish to Day 116, whenever, whatever is most easy for us all in weird timelock zones.

[We won a game, huzzah! Night 115 is when Pharaoh is coming back to the unit with a pink sensitiv sweater wrapped around his waist because his clothes went missing.

But day 116, he's got clothes again, hooray. HOW ARE YOU ALL?]

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[Maki was in and out occasionally through the afternoon and evening of 115, including one point when X rings the doorbell incessantly until she lets him in, but she never lingers in the common area and shuts the door of her room.

In the morning she finally comes out though! It's fairly early in the morning when she sits down at the table with one of her leftover muffins. From the look of her, she may or may not have actually slept.]

[Wakes up at sunrise all the time so he's probably already awake.]

It is morning of a new day. How do you fare?

[glances at him briefly, evaluating]

...I could be worse, I guess.

Do I need to destroy anyone for you?

...I'm going to destroy her myself. I'm just deciding the best way.

Fair enough.

[...]

Thank you, though.

And if you have any suggestions, I'll listen. Just killing her isn't an option, given the way things worked out after my live.

And in the end, nothing is permanent. You could cut off fingers, but she could simply buy new ones. You could drown her, but she'd simply come back. I suppose you could repeat it as some sort of torture, but I doubt a member of pep!pep would volunteer without hefty payment. Same for members of sensitiv.

I suppose there is using nightmare visions as a mental scar, but I would find that unsatisfying. I would rather fight them.

...

I guess I could fight her.

[said as if this is just occurring to her]

Does she seem like she can fight?

[...]

She punched me a few times, so she can at least try.

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[also looking pretty tired as he sits down with her]

Hey.

...Hey.

[picks at her muffin absently]

Rough night too?

You could say that. How are you holding up?

[shrugs]

I'm up. I talked to a bunch of people yesterday, so I feel... more under control.

But I'm still deciding what to do to her.

Mm. You're the one she hurt, so it's not any of my business what you decide. But do you wanna hear my opinion anyway?

Sure. I've been gathering ideas.

First of all, what's more important to you right now: revenge or making sure she doesn't do it again?

...Obviously I don't want her to do it again, but... More like, I want to make her understand what she did and regret it.

But just hurting her isn't enough if it makes her feel like she slipped up, did a bad thing, got punished for it, and now everything is even.

I don't think anything's going to make her regret it, deep down. She's the kind of person who's not going to get better no matter what you do to her. The best she can do is repress those desires within her.

That's my impression, at least.

[...]

Then I'd rather she not suppress them and acknowledge that's who she is. That she did that because she wanted to, she likes it, and in that situation she didn't have a reason to stop.

But that's not what she's going to do. She's going to act all sad and martyred and regretful and half the people here will just accept that and argue it wasn't her fault, she didn't have full control, look at her she knows it was terrible and feels so bad, the games can force us to to horrible things, and on and on. Probably some of the same people who were furious at me for even suggesting I might consciously hurt someone for perfectly legitimate reasons.

[a tired glance up]

Not really. But better, I guess.

... well, good. That's something.

[exhales slowly.]

I talked some with Yugi, and with King. And I've been working on ideas for what to do.

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