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Who: Joker and whoever
Where: BAD END=DEAD END
When: post-A drama and onward through Day 76 probably

[anyway, a certain Wild Card is going to head to his room and flop face-first into his bed.

if anyone needs him, well. he's not hard to find.

how's everyone else on the unit doing?]

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[... yeah, that is the question isn't it.

looking down at the bed because he really doesn't have a good answer for that]

[ ...

Well, that just earns him another hug. ]

It's okay to be angry.

[impotent angry is the worst feeling though. just gets frustrated tears and some harsh breathing.]

It's not even just me, either.

He... used A. Knew he was vulnerable and just wanted to be accepted--twisted that up and had him doing those things...

[he's just. so beyond infuriated by this man.]

He used A to get what he wanted, and likely with no true regard for A.

What a sorry excuse for a Father.

[ Is she still a little frightened by A? Yes. Can she... understand being used by your Father? Absolutely. So while it doesn't make any of what A did okay, having your own parental figure use you like a pawn can drive you to some crazy places. ]

And going after kids--just because... we wanted something better than his corrupt bullshit!

[WHY ARE. ADULTS. THE FUCKING WORST?!

but also the heavy guilt in his stomach, knowing he was the one who brought them together and lead them into it--actually, that's the worst of it. the part that keeps breaking the dam.]

And that is something worth fighting for! Corrupt politician standing in our way or not! It just shows what kind of man he is.

[ Adults fucking suck, the entire plot of Persona 5.

There is no buddy bond right now, but he doesn't need it to feel the heaviness of the air. ]

You're feeling something else along with that. Stop putting all the weight on your own shoulders.

[when you know you're gonna get scolded but also--]

S'my fault... you guys got caught up, too.

[ Cupping his face and tilting his face up so that they can make eye contact. ]

Stop.

[ Her voice is firm. ]

Your fault that we made a choice to stand by you? Your fault that even if the going gets tough, we want to stick by your side? I don't want to hear you say that you forced me or Fox or anyone to stick around.

I don't...I don't remember a lot yet. But certainly we all had our own reasons to fight.

[why so hot when everything feels bad???

but also, not looking away and swallowing a bit thickly.]

There was... a plan. I think. To get out of that situation.

But I didn't--I probably didn't think they'd... beat me. Or drug me-- [he was probably too late to change the outcome and that sense of failure is palpable.]

I messed up.

[ this is just how it is sometimes. ]

But it's not over.

... I know.

I know that.

[he literally just said it like 5 minutes ago, but also... it's hard.]

I just... feel like... people need me to get it together. And I can't. So even if it's not over--the things that might happen between now and then... I've already. Made a lot of bigger mistakes.

[she's called him leader before but how can anyone call him that when chances are he's going to end up a demon or something because he's just that much a fuck up???]

One thing at a time here.

People need you to get it together, and then you end up carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders. What exactly do you think that you are doing to yourself in the process here?

What is Joker doing for Joker's sake? What is Joker doing for Joker's well-being?

[ Maybe she's going in circles, maybe she's hitting a dead end. But... it's not like she can let him keep dragging himself like this. ]

[this is not the first time today he's been asked this but somehow the answer he gave before sounds... worse.

so he mostly just kind of... looks a bit at a loss.]

I'm... I've been reading. About post-traumatic stress... depression... things like that...

[that's... helping himself? right?]

Mars offered to spar with me. And I was thinking... about maybe... running simulations in the vid room. Fighting my own shadows, maybe.

[this is probably not what Prim meant but ???]

[ Well, it is...very close enough. She will take it since he is offering it. She settles again, next to him and close if he wants it. ]

I'm glad to hear it.

[ ...and just to lighten the mood: ]

Mars hits pretty hard, you better be ready for that.

[frrrroooowns because. he can totally take Mars.]

I hit harder.

[which is true. currently. he trashed Mars a couple of times already.]

We kind of have that in common. I... probably like that sort of thing a little too much? Maybe.

[ ...pffft. ]

Then I guess you can be my next arm wrestling opponent.

[ Mars totally lets her win. ]

Do you find it stress relieving to punch things? To spar?

["next" one, huh?

... fingers are... fiddling with each other a bit. keeping still at that question is a task, really.]

I guess so. Though... I've picked the wrong opponents or moments for it before so it... didn't help so much those times.

[ NEXT ONE, INDEED. ]

Mm... I see.

[ It's hard to not know what to suggest, but maybe...maybe Joker just needs someone to listen to him. ]

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