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Who: Joker and whoever
Where: BAD END=DEAD END
When: post-A drama and onward through Day 76 probably

[anyway, a certain Wild Card is going to head to his room and flop face-first into his bed.

if anyone needs him, well. he's not hard to find.

how's everyone else on the unit doing?]

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[lifts his head before he pushes himself up into a sitting position.]

Hey.

You can lay down if you need to.

[coming to sit next to him, though]

I'm not really that sleepy...

Mm. How are you feeling? I saw...that memory.

[... how IS he feeling? has to. think about this.]

Tired, mostly.

I'm... still trying. To get my head wrapped around everything that happened today.

You can talk about it if you want.

Edited 2018-12-30 06:52 (UTC)

Where do I even start?

... my memory was already pretty shitty--I was drugged and beaten up and had to convince a prosecutor to help me to finish out a plan that... didn't even work, according to A's memory.

And then Maki... wanted to downgrade the relationship. Still do things but not so committed or with labels because--I dunno. The issues were too many, mistakes too complicated to untangle.

[mooost of the mistakes probably his but also like...]

And she made a fair point about us probably not actually being at that level yet.

[still. sucks. so much.]

And then A's memory and all of that...

[he's so. tired? rubs at his eyes because they're definitely watering up but he's tired of crying too]]

[she sighs, and reaches over to stroke his hair]

That’s a lot to deal with in one day.

[there wasn’t even a bad game and one of us is still traumatized, why]

I’m sorry. I know Maki has been struggling lately.

... not with some people.

And I know... I haven't been helping with it--making things worse with how I handled the monochroming and not talking to people. But also... if she wanted me to stay... and not just... leave her with Intensity then... why didn't she just say something? Anything?

Or maybe I wasn't... listening.

I dunno.

I just know I haven't been and probably am not good enough. Even though I've been trying, and working on things. But it's not the wrong choice here for a lot of reasons and it sucks.

[kind of. a watery laugh because. doesn't want to cry. would rather laugh.]

It really sucks.

Edited 2018-12-30 07:29 (UTC)

[ok, time to hug him, I guess. Sliding an arm around him]

Maki needing space doesn’t mean you’re not good enough. It just means she needs space.

[but she knows it’s bad and the timing is bad and it hurts, so. She’s just gonna hug him and pet him a little]

I know... I know that... it'll probably help. A lot of things.

I'm just tired.

I've been... trying to keep it together--but being told to keep it together when I just can't anymore is also...

[Mars and Maki both meant well and it was a good thing he was on his feet again when A did his thing but also now he's overstretched and run thin and is going to lean into the hold some]

Then, let go for a little while.

I'm tired of always being the upset one.

[childish complaint but settling against her nonetheless, arms going around her waist while he buries his face against her shoulder]

[Hair pets]

You're not. Half the time you insist you're fine, remember? You've had a rough week, it's okay to be upset.

It's just... not fair.

[even more childish and he does know nothing's ever really fair but back to back memories like that, with the guy who wrecked his life manipulating A into killing him--that's just the worst.]

[In this particular case it seems pretty legit to complain and be angry about the circumstances. They seem pretty shit. She doesn't even really know all the details, but...]

I know.

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