how we doin, Taisho

[rollplayinghouse]

Who: Taisho (and anyone who wants to check on them)
Where: Taisho dorms
When: Day 66, late morning

[Maki ultimately spent the night at Future is Now, but in the morning she finally takes everyone's advice and returns to Taisho. She is fully grayscale at this point, and also looks... a bit darker, maybe? Like she's standing in a shadow, or someone moved the brightness slider down slightly.

She changes back into a Taisho outfit before coming back to the common area.]

So... does anyone have thoughts on doing better at unit unity.

Comments

[artisticliberty]

...

You're right. It was a selfish decision. I wanted to prove to Taisho that they were worth saving--worth getting my hands dirty for. But I was terrified of what was going to happen in that game. I wanted to push forward, but the more I advanced, the more afraid I became. Afraid of myself and what sort of person I would become afterwards. And when I saw A... someone important to Maki and Boss, someone I want to be friends with... my resolve failed me. I had my sword on me, I could have fought him. But I didn't. I selfishly wanted to keep him safe, so that my unitmate and my friends would be happy--and to preserve the chance that one day, we could be friends, too.

None of that means that Taisho doesn't matter to me. The health and well-being of my unitmates matters to me. But as you said, there was no good decision to be made in that scenario. I made a selfish decision, and I am sorry you and the rest of this unit had to pay for it. But do not accuse me of not caring about you, about any of you. I care so, so much.

[bluerosestyle]

The sort of person you became is the sort of person who put someone you'd like to be friends with before a friend, expecting your friends to understand and justify that, take your "care" at face value and nurse our own wounds while you care for others'.




I really shouldn't have to say any of this.

[artisticliberty]

How am I supposed to know that my friends see it that way when they never said anything about it in the first place?

Sol, please. I am trying. I have made so many mistakes since I first woke up. But I want to do better by you. I should have been more concerned with you after the game, yes. I should have checked in on you. But I just... I didn't know.

[bluerosestyle]

[quiet]

I said too much.

[takes a few steps away from the table]

I'm sorry you ended up finding out about this indirectly. I thought I was doing what was best for both of us. And it's not like I don't believe your intentions were good, but... I need some more time to be able to see things that way.

[artisticliberty]

[takes a deep breath and lets it out]

... very well. Take your time.

[bluerosestyle]

[nods

and it looks like he's about to say something else, but. he closes his eyes instead, bows very subtly, then walks away]