mingle (memory)

[widenessofthesea]

Who: Idols (with and without memories)
Where: Wherever in Tokyo-F
When: Day 358

[ also, maybe some of you want some memories? ]

Comments

[mind_blown]

[being glib to cover up feelings is real legit actually.]

Who coulda known, emotions make crazy shit happen?

[gigadevilbreaker]

Guess it pays to be an emotional wreck sometimes.

[mind_blown]

Something something, when shit hits the fan...

Anyway, congrats, you solved the mystery.

[gigadevilbreaker]

Man. I still feel like I'm buzzing with adrenaline.

[mind_blown]

Yeah, I bet.

[he'll lean on the wall near him.]

Way to end that spree, on a fight with your "let's fight to the death" dad.

[gigadevilbreaker]

He did stab me through the chest a few times, so it's not like he didn't try.

[mind_blown]

Did I say he didn't?

How do you feel?

[gigadevilbreaker]

Like... I mean, I can't believe I did that. But now it-- feels like I can do anything.

I feel like I could take down Azface himself without flinching.

[mind_blown]

Oh, glad you finally got convinced of that. Better hold on to that feeling.

[gigadevilbreaker]

[Lightly,]

Whadya mean 'finally'? I thought my whole problem was that I didn't think enough before jumping into something dumb.

[mind_blown]

Not mutually exclusive like you seem to think. Feel like we've talked about this more than once, y'know.

[he shrugs lightly]

[gigadevilbreaker]

So I've gotten smarter, is what you're saying?

[mind_blown]

You're still dancing around my point, so no.

You throw yourself into shit because you think you can't handle it. And you've got a nearly suicidal desire to prove yourself wrong.

Fact that you now think you could take on that shitheel means it's probably less likely you're gonna be a dumbass about it. So, that's one less problem for the "fuck you, I'll kill that thing" impulse you've got.

[gigadevilbreaker]

[Hey...]

Didn't realize I'd married a psychiatrist.

[mind_blown]

You didn't. I'm just saying.

[gigadevilbreaker]

It sounds like what a psychologist would say...

[mind_blown]

... you've been to a psychologist?

Ever?

[gigadevilbreaker]

...

You can probably guess my answer there.

[mind_blown]

So, how do you know?

I'm just calling it like I see it.

[gigadevilbreaker]

[huffs fondly]

Well. You always did know me better than I know myself.

[mind_blown]

[he sighs a little, and shakes his head with a bit of grin.]

To be fair, you're not exactly a closed book.

[gigadevilbreaker]

Don't think anyone reads it like you though.

[mind_blown]

What, y'think I got them dulcet tones or something?

[gigadevilbreaker]

Obviously yes, but I was thinkin' more along the lines of 'an english major who pulls no punches with his book report'.

[mind_blown]

[now he reaches out to punch his shoulder-- not hard, but not light either.]

That's not the only punch I won't pull.

[because honestly, the entire idea of going to college? too damn normal.]