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[crimeson]

Who: ZRAEL and... visitors?
Where: ZRAEL
When: 243 morningish

[it's a wonderful day in hell and you are a terrible-- wait, has that door... ALWAYS been there?]

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[stakesthesame]

...

I'm sorry.

[hissterics]

Why? About what?

You didn't do anything.

[stakesthesame]

For not doing anything.

[ quiet for a moment, grimacing. ]

I don't-- know how or why, but she... liked me? And I'm... I've never been good at... being... objective.

... tried, though. And I didn't know she said those things to you.

[hissterics]

Yeah, well, no one else did anything either. Pretty sure Manny just coddled her and patched her up after I scratched her eye, but nobody bothered to say anything to her after she killed herself to--

[ She breaks off abruptly, fists clenching a bit. ]

. . . Anyway. Zrael didn't care what she did to me, so I just stayed away, most of the time. It worked fine for everyone.

[stakesthesame]

[ curls up a bit tighter ]

I care. If I'd known, I would have-- done something, I dunno...

[hissterics]

[ Would she have?

Has anyone ever come to Sabre's defense when it could have put them out with someone they were invested in their position with?

No. ]

. . .

Whatever. It doesn't matter now. She's gone and she's not coming back.

[stakesthesame]

[ i literally made god beg forgiveness on her knees in hss how invested in my position with her could i possibly be ]

... yeah. Yeah.

[hissterics]

[ She falls silent for long enough that it probably seems like the conversation is over, the tip of her tail thumping unhappily against the floor.

Eventually, though: ]

You can't leave.

[stakesthesame]

M'not leaving.

[ mumbled, voice thick. ]

Just... just gotta not... be around, as much. For a little while.

[hissterics]

That's basically the same thing as leaving!

[stakesthesame]

M'still gonna come home to sleep. Just-- for a few days.

... just wanna make sure I don't junk up anybody's friendships or whatever for a few days. Let things calm down, let the new guy get settled.

[hissterics]

[ Another long moment of silence, and then she slumps a little. ]

. . . Fine.

[stakesthesame]

[ quiet for a long moment. ]

... you'll still-- hang out when I'm home, right?

[hissterics]

. . . Idiot.

Of course I will.

[stakesthesame]

[ no response.

but maybe that's because there's eventually just a little hiccuping noise, as she buries her face into her arms. ]

1/2

[hissterics]

[ oh shit ]

[hissterics]

[ She stands from her blanket pile and creeps over to her, awkwardly. ]

Hey . . .

[stakesthesame]

[ -- sucks in a breath, uncurling to furiously rub her eyes. ]

Sorry. It's fine.

[hissterics]

[ It's really not fine.

She wordlessly takes a seat next to Req, shoulders touching, and pulls her knees up to her chest, tail wrapping around both of them. ]

[stakesthesame]

[ ...

after a second or two she just curls up against her side, loosely draping that wing over her. ]

[hissterics]

[ . . . Okay.

Well, after a hesitant moment, she shifts one arm to wrap around her waist and tug her in closer. ]

[stakesthesame]

[ this is definitely more fine than before but.

she stays quiet now, just huddled against her. ]

[hissterics]

[ After a while: ]

Where're you gonna go when you're not at Zrael?

[stakesthesame]

Weather's been nice lately, so... figured I'd take Lady out most of the day, drop him off at night to sleep, maybe just... hang out with people. Haven't been really hangin' out with anyone off team lately so... maybe it'd be nice to be friends with people again.

Maybe I'll just wander around. I dunno.

[hissterics]

[ Snorts a little. ]

Friends, huh?

How embarrassing for you.