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[windheritance]

Who: future is now and maybe visitors?
Where: future is now
When: Day 138, morning

[ A young man wakes up in his bedroom. It just so happens that today, Day 138, is the date he will make his idol debut in Imeeji Idol Productions! Although it was ten years, three months, and two days since he was given a name, it is only today that he will be given an idol name!

What will that new name be? ]

Comments

[rollplayinghouse]

I don't. I hate it.

I'm not trying to change them, though. And I'm not just coming up with random expectations. With Doodleman, he told me what the unit was like. With X, he said he wanted to try again, to put in the effort to do things differently and get to know me for real.

When someone tells me something like that, I want to believe them. Because that's... what I want.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

I didn't say you were trying to change anyone. Nor did I say your expectations were random. They've been consistent. And you're not shy about spelling them out.

And regardless of whether you want to believe in those things, you're also setting yourself up for disappointment if you keep approaching it this way.

[rollplayinghouse]

...Maybe. Maybe I'm just too desperate. So, people will say things like that casually, without any particular commitment... but I'll cling onto it, and then be hurt when they disappoint me without even realizing I was hoping for something.

I don't know how to stop that, though.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

Make them prove their words to you specifically, not to anyone else, before you believe them.

That's a place to start.

[rollplayinghouse]

That's exactly what I did with X. I asked him how he was going to prove what he was saying, and he just got offended and left.

I said "hoping," not "believing." I didn't believe everything about ZRAEL. I wasn't going to believe X so easily after everything.

...And I know it ends up better when things aren't... confused with words and promises. When someone proves that they're there for me by what they do, naturally, not because they're trying to live up to some kind of expectation.

But I don't know how to not get my hopes up.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

[Not even sarcastic.



Okay, maybe a little sarcastic]

...

Hope sounds utterly exhausting.

[rollplayinghouse]

...

[She sighs and leans back a little.]

It kind of is.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

[There is an awkward pause while Intensity thinks and discards at least half a dozen responses.




Yeah, he's got nothing.

Picks up a card up and moves three spaces]

[rollplayinghouse]

[Sets her hand on top of the deck and pauses again.]

At least... I also have people who have done way more than I ever could have hoped.

[When she draws the card she stares at it a moment before she moves. It's a character card that jumps her halfway across the board.]

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

. . .

[Huffs, trying not to get his feathers ruffled, but well--- It's Intensity. And competition, so---]




Rude.

[Picks up a card and advances a measly three spaces]

You can't just accept a summons from just anyone.

[rollplayinghouse]

[huffs, and tries to hide a small smile]

Are you jealous?

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

Of you have tea with Princess Lolly? Hardly. It's probably 70% sugar.

[rollplayinghouse]

Probably, but I like sweet things. Maybe you'd prefer I came at your invitation rather than hers.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

Obviously. Do you even need to say that out loud?

[rollplayinghouse]

You've never given me sweets.

[bluescreenwhitedragon]

Are you teaching me how to bribe you? That seems dangerous.

[rollplayinghouse]

I think I can handle that danger.