imeeji_frontstage | medical/self-care live!

Who: some cute nurses & you
Where: the lobby + wherever if you want a housecall
When: day 131, noon

[ hope everyone is resting well! or maybe keeping busy, as one does after horrible trauma. some sensitIVs are doing just that - actually, it's been a while since lucifel's called a live, hasn't it? but he's in the lobby in a nurse outfit, with nya, and possibly a few other sensitIVs who may or may not have been roped into wearing nurse outfits. it's mystery ]

Ahhh . . . Uhm, good morning, everyone -

[ somewhat nervously, or maybe self-conscious, ]

It's been a while, hasn't it? Not for any good reason either, but - in any case, we thought it would be good to have something like this again . . . that is -

Hello! This is a medical checkup Live, since we've had a rough couple of days. Uhm, if you would like to get a checkup, we'll be here in the lobby! Even if you don't feel it's necessary, we've arranged to have some comforts here, if you'd like to stop by for some self-care, instead!

[ camera swivel to the lobby which has a bunch of dakimakuras (stripped of their covers so you're not looking at lewds) and blankets, some of them raised up like someone's taken boxes to make them into tables and put a blanket over it so it looks nicer. on them are a few kettles and teapots, mismatched like someone gathered pretty much every tea dispenser he could. there are also a few trays of sweets - desserts from the café, as well as fruits to be cut up, as well as like, ice cream and Japanese snacks like purin and senbei. there is probably literally a boxtable that is entirely just mandarin oranges. ]

. . . Uhm . . .

[ with the camera back to lucifel, who looks somewhat conflicted - though overall grateful, ]

Speaking personally for a moment - it was really comforting to have people by my side, yesterday - so thank you . . . Even though I was a mess who couldn't stop crying . . .

. . . And - in the end, it made me feel a lot better, and I understood just then that crying can bring great relief! So - uhm, if you need a shoulder to cry on, or an ear to listen to your troubles, or a lap to rest your head on, or someone to hug or wrestle to get rid of stress - well, I don't know if we're all able to do that here but we'll do our best to help you how we can!

[ and he gives an earnest smile, there ]

I'm still - uhm, learning . . . quite a lot of things, so this is the best I could think of for "self care", but if you have an idea for the future, I'd be most grateful to know it!

[ then, a beat ]

Ahh, but it's understandable that you might not want to relax around some people, so - well - for this reason, we decided against visiting every dorm like we did before, but -

If you'd like one of us to make a housecall to your dorm instead, then please send a text to your preferred healer on duty, and we'll be on the way! If you really can't tolerate any of us, then . . . well, it would be best to get as many points as you can, since this last game was really bad for scars, but - well, in any case, we'll do our best to stay out of your way, so please let us know in advance as well, or otherwise spend some time outside of the lobby, please! We've made a border -

[ with a gesture to the line of pillows where all dakimakura and blanket and foodnonsense stops ]

- for you to have a clear walkway, so please bear with our intrusion for the next couple of hours!

[ cheerily. ok lucifel signing off ]

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I'm sorry things have been so rough lately.

And I'm sorry for the stress we put you through, the game before last. Have you had a chance to talk to Wednesday about it?

It has been hard on everyone, so there is no reason to apologize. Right now, everyone should enjoy a reprieve.

I have spoken to Wednesday however. She stayed over the night that the first game took place and helped me to look over the princess. We were able to speak a great deal that night.

Did that help at all? For either of you?

I would like to think so. Though I can only speak from my own perspective.

[ They mostly cried ]

Miss Wednesday is... she is incredibly important to me. I cherish her greatly and I am relieved to have moved forward.

I'm sure she is too. You mean a lot to her, and she was pretty upset after that game, so I'm certain it was a relief to work things out with you.

Regardless, how were you after the recent game? It was quite brutal, even for those who survived. After all, everyone suffered from various issues until the end.

I wasn't there, but pep!pep! was fine. Seems we all came out unscathed.

I nearly had a breakdown while looking after my friends, though.

How about you? Are you feeling any better?

I am sorry that it was like that for you. I feel similar when I see the princess or Miss Wednesday... it is a painful feeling and I am sorry that you've been forced to endure it once more.

[ Others too, of course. It's always painful. He swallows a bit and shakes his head. Well-- they can all relate to that painful feeling. ]

More than anything, however, I am simply tired. The past couple of days have been a lot.

[ Closing his eyes...and sigh...ing...a little. ]

I have been...very worked up recently. And outside of the games themselves, at a loss on various fronts.

[ Glancing down... ]

I... regardless of my personal feelings on the matter, I am...sorry for yelling so fiercely at you.

[Brows knitting with a frown, still not facing him. ]

. . . I was distraught. And I unfairly placed various expectations upon you after my admiration rose. As a result, I released a great deal of emotion on you and it wasn't fair.

[ He bows ]

I am sorry. You are one of the only people outside of the princess and Miss Wednesday that I feel I can talk to earnestly. And I... do not want to lose that friendship.

[He's quiet for a moment -- a little speechless, honestly. Did -- does -- Levi know how deeply those words cut him? He's not really sure, but he definitely wasn't expecting an apology for it.]

Thank you, Leviathan... I didn't want to lose your friendship, either.

Did Wednesday explain to you why we played that way?

She was mostly distraught when she spoke to me. She was not... able to make herself very clear, though I think even without a full explanation, I understand what she was trying to say.

[ He's quiet for a moment... ]

I still...do not like it. It is not that I think self-sacrifice is not noble. I will die protecting the princess. I would much rather die like that than waste away in a bed, unable to do anything.

[ Like his father... like the fate of all the dragons before him. ]

And I know... I know you are in pain watching people you love die. Of course you would be.

But Lilith...

[ His brows knit, looking vexed. ]

I don't know how I would live knowing that Miss Wednesday or you sacrificed yourselves at the possible expense of visiting that woman... of experiencing something worse than death. We didn't know if throwing the game would result in it, but even so... my heart froze over. Miss Wednesday is... she is far too precious to me.

I understand.

I know how hard it is to watch bad things happen to people you care about. It's a horrible, horrible thing. And it's okay to be upset about that.

But playing that way was a decision we all chose for ourselves. We knew what the consequences were, and we consented to it willingly.

I understand that it would have made you sad if it had happened, but it was still our choice to make. Just as it is your choice to sacrifice yourself for Hiryuu, even if that would make Hiryuu sad.

I was born with that obligation, however. It is my sacred duty. The reason that I exist as I do... is because my life and strength belong to the princess. My entire being is tied to that connection.

[ In his mind... it is different. ]

You... do not have that responsibility.

[ Don't go sacrificing yourself, friend... ]

If I think there is a way to save you...or Miss Wednesday... if I think there is something I can do to prevent you from something worse than death, then I... no matter how many times it were to happen again, I would still want to save you.

[ Frowning, staring at the ground. ]

I can't keep you alive all of the time. And I know none of you want that. There are a number of people on my unit who have loved ones spread out between different units. But at least from Lilith... at the very least, we can try and spare you from that. Please do not tell us not to act out of such a fear. I don't want to see any of you hurt or to die... and Miss Wednesday is precious and dear to me. I... cannot sit still if I think she may visit that person.

[ Closing his eyes ]

I don't know if you would have all been forced to visit that wicked individual if you had died. All I know is the deep-rooted fear I felt that you would. And the horror that it may have been on my account.

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