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[asonoficeandfire]

Who: FiNs
Where: FiN dorms
When: Day 129 post game

[so we rolled a dice and failed. how is everyone holding up with their effects?]

Comments

[resonantblue]

[hm]



[hmmm]

You are like a best friend though.

[arealeyeopener]

You're my best friend too.

[resonantblue]

[...!]

With that in mind, it must be our familiarity with one another that makes us friends, so I still cannot begin to answer your question.

[arealeyeopener]

I'm okay with that.

[resonantblue]

[nods]

And this may be sudden, but I think the pursuit of friendship with the intent of protecting future is now is proving pointless.

[arealeyeopener]

Yeah, HSS has friends and they...

[resonantblue]

Right...

[pulls a small bag of ice off her head and pokes at it]

This plan had a flaw I should have identified sooner.

Not long ago, I asked individuals to rank their friends. Some would say: "but how would you feel to be ranked lower than you expected?"

And at times Silence would respond: "It is fine, because I expect to be ranked lower."

Do you see the problem? Because I did not—not until the game, when I realized that I people I cared about were under no obligation to protect us just because I placed value in them.

[arealeyeopener]

Yeah.

And a lot of people have people they remember from their old lives here. It's all really complicated and difficult.

[resonantblue]

Everyone's commitments to other units are already determined... so I want to put an end to my plan. It is a waste of energy to befriend people with the ulterior motive of "surviving."

[arealeyeopener]

But it's still nice to have friends.

[resonantblue]

...it stings, but it is quite nice to have friends.

[arealeyeopener]

...you're really brave, Silence.

[resonantblue]

W-what? Why do you suddenly say that?

[arealeyeopener]

A lot of people would be scared of that sting and abandon friends.

I think that's what Sho did.

[resonantblue]

[ o h ]

Shogun abandoned his friends...?

[arealeyeopener]

He abandoned the idea of having friends.

[resonantblue]

[buries her face in the floor—well, propped on her arm, against the floor, her voice weak]

Shogun... felt so alone.

[arealeyeopener]

Yeah.

He wouldn't let anyone in. Not even us I think.

[resonantblue]

If he were here I would hug him.

...unless he strongly opposed the idea.

[arealeyeopener]

He could deal with a hug.

[ruffles her hair]

It's getting better a little.

You guys didn't die. You were middle tier.

[resonantblue]

...we still survived.

[arealeyeopener]

Maybe next time will be a win.

[resonantblue]

Hopefully that is not for a while.

[arealeyeopener]

[...just pats]

[resonantblue]

[insert an it's always sunny title card]