☆ZRAEL post

[rollplayinghouse]

Who: ☆ZRAEL + at least a couple friends
Where: ☆ZRAEL
When: Day 129, afternoon into evening

[We're doing alright!!!!]

Comments

[puzzlekeeper]

About pep!pep!, and how they intend to play. It puts me in a difficult position. And I can't... keep dragging my team into it.

[rollplayinghouse]

...Mm. I yelled at Yugi a bit, for being stupid, and dragging you into a bad position, among other things.

[puzzlekeeper]

[ ....................................... MAKI ]




You yelled at him?

[rollplayinghouse]

A little! It was stupid!

...I also told him I understood, and that he shouldn't feel like just because this was a bad idea he can't do anything to help, and I offered to talk to him some later.

But even accepting that it's a valid choice to sacrifice yourself for someone you care about, that was still stupid. There were plenty of points in that game for everyone to live. They gave up and decided to die from the beginning.

[puzzlekeeper]

[ SIGHS.

What can he really say? He also yelled. Not that he's proud of it. ]

Yelling isn't a good way of dealing with Yugi. He tends to - doubt himself. And feel guilty.

I shouldn't have yelled either.

[rollplayinghouse]

...Mm. That's why I backed off a bit. He seemed like... well, how I felt after my live. Like I couldn't be useful to the people I cared about at all, only hurt them.

That's why I want to go by later.

[puzzlekeeper]

[ A nod ]

I'm not surprised...

I need to decide what I'm going to say to him when I go over there.

[rollplayinghouse]

I don't really know what to say either. I'm not really good at... reassuring people of their self-worth, I guess...?

But I'm sure you have it a lot harder.

[puzzlekeeper]

[ He glances sideways at her, then resumes staring steadfastly out over the lake. ]

... What do you think I should have done?

[rollplayinghouse]

...Well, practically, I think you should have taken care of your own unit and left saving pep!pep! from their own idiocy to units with points to spare.

I can't say that's what I would have done, though. But I've never been in that situation on a unit I either cared about or could actually influence the decisions of.

[puzzlekeeper]

Mm...

I regret it, a little.

And I hate that I do.

[rollplayinghouse]

I don't think there's any way you could have made that decision that you wouldn't regret.

[puzzlekeeper]

[ He sinks a little lower into the blankets and runs an exhausted hand over his face, before chuckling darkly. ]

That's just how it is here, isn't it?

Sometimes there's no good answer.

[rollplayinghouse]

[leans against him a little more]

That's just how it is in general. But especially here.

[puzzlekeeper]

[ boy this descent into nihilism sure is fun huh ]




...

I'm going to have to ask my team not to intervene next time.

[rollplayinghouse]

[what 'descent,' this is where she lives]

...Hopefully there won't be a next time, but... You think your unit would want to do it again?

[puzzlekeeper]

Some of them. It was Hiryuu who originally proposed it, and Hurricane always prefers to play that way.

But... Eclipse has always been very adamant about playing as harshly as we need to to survive.

[ And, well............... the results speak for themselves. ]

[rollplayinghouse]

I see. Even if a team gets along, it's hard if they don't agree on that kind of thing...

We probably have a little while before it comes up again, at least. You can take some time for everyone to calm down a little.

[puzzlekeeper]

Maybe...

But I guess I would prefer not to let anything sit long enough that it seems like I'm avoiding the problem.

[rollplayinghouse]

A day or two is fine for both not avoiding it and not doing it while it's still raw, I think.

[puzzlekeeper]

Mm...

[ Well, she's probably not wrong about that. ]

I guess I'll see how things look tomorrow.

[rollplayinghouse]

...You can stay here as long as you want.

[puzzlekeeper]

[ He glances over at her. ]

... Are you sure? Aren't there other people you'll want to check on?

[ He can't be that high of a priority!!!! ]

[rollplayinghouse]

Not really...? ZRAEL is fine, and Intensity will be coming here soon...

[OR WILL HE]

[puzzlekeeper]

[ Expect nothing and you'll never be disappointed. ]

Alright. Then - I would like that.