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[rollwillpowercheck]

Who: maybe YOU?
Where: the hotel
When: Day 78, evening/night

[Sure, we've got plenty of unit posts, but what about everything that doesn't fit into one of those? Feel like making yourself a snack? Want to have an emotional outburst in the lobby?

Mingle away, folks.]

Comments

Re: Day 79, early evening

[awakenerd]

Goddess...

[He lifts a hand and scrubs at his face.]

Okay. Thank you for at least talking to me. Mind if I give you a hug?

Re: Day 79, early evening

[crossmyheartandhope]

S'cool, I'm - I'm good.

[Huffs a laugh, kind of wet.]

Sorry, dude. Came to apologize, and instead I'm just dumping my BS all over you.

Re: Day 79, early evening

[awakenerd]

Honestly the talking means more to me than an apology. At least if I understand you I feel like... I guess it's all messed up but everyone's still doing the best they can.

Re: Day 79, early evening

[crossmyheartandhope]

[Quiet for a beat, and then two. Then:]

I'll see what I can do. You got any more questions?

Re: Day 79, early evening

[awakenerd]

I have SO many questions.

But you look like hell.

Re: Day 79, early evening

[crossmyheartandhope]

Not talking's not gonna make me look less like hell, pretty sure.

Re: Day 79, early evening

[awakenerd]

...okay... so what happened? After the game. And why did you and Nem go for Nya and Yasuragi over talking? Is that going to be normal if someone hurts one of you? Or was it something about the situation particularly?

Re: Day 79, early evening

[crossmyheartandhope]

I dunno why she went after em. Fight or flight, I guess. She's always been the fight type.

[He hesitates a beat.]

I was gonna try and disarm whoever it was, see if we could figure stuff out. Only... that didn't work out so good.

[He hesitates a little longer this time.]

I'd do it again, if I had to. I told Nya to get away from her, that second time, and he said I'd have to make him. So I made him.

Re: Day 79, early evening

[awakenerd]

If it happened again would you want to stop?

Re: Day 79, early evening

[crossmyheartandhope]

...I don't know.

I wanted him down fast, in case Nem needed backup.

[He didn't want to be too late again.]

Re: Day 79, early evening

[awakenerd]

Hurricane can I ask... what do you think of this place? Like, in general, what's happening to everyone?

Re: Day 79, early evening

[crossmyheartandhope]

I mean... we're dead, I guess. Right?

We gotta be.

Re: Day 79, early evening

[awakenerd]

I know some of us are but unless we were lied to, which is possible, it's not all of us.

Re: Day 79, early evening

[crossmyheartandhope]

I mean. We know we got lied to.

Exael said she was with heaven, too, right?

Re: Day 79, early evening

[awakenerd]

Yeah. But distrusting everything is going to drive us crazy.

Re: Day 79, early evening

[crossmyheartandhope]

[Bold of you to assume we're not going crazy anyway.]

...yeah. I know that.

Re: Day 79, early evening

[awakenerd]

[Crazier faster]

So what are you going to do? For yourself?

Re: Day 79, early evening

[crossmyheartandhope]

About what?

Re: Day 79, early evening

[awakenerd]

What this place does to us. Wants from us. Are you going to go along with it or do you intend to fight it?

We all have to figure out how to keep our sanity, whether that means letting this place divide us and force us to prioritize or something else.

Re: Day 79, early evening

[crossmyheartandhope]

...I dunno. I guess, the plan's always been to hang on till we got an out, then take it. Bust out and burn the place down, you know?

[He's quiet for a beat or two - silence where he's not emotionally honest enough to put some things into words.]

I still - I think if we got any chance, we're gonna have to work together.

[Another beat of silence, longer this time.]

But I'm gonna keep her safe, no matter what.

Re: Day 79, early evening

[awakenerd]

....

Nya got shot in the back, his first round, before he did anything. Way before Nemesis popped up and scared the shit out of him.

I don't agree with his reaction to fear. I don't agree with yours.

But I'm not going to judge what you believe is right, or how you think you should handle things. Part of me is so scared and freaked out about my loved ones getting hurt, about seeing them dying, about how much it kills me that I didn't fight to help... So I get it.

But I'm convinced everyone here can be better than their fears. Even if all of us, including--especially--me, stumble sometimes.

Re: Day 79, early evening

[crossmyheartandhope]

[He's quiet for a long, long moment.]

[Then he nods, slow.]

...I'll try harder next time.

Re: Day 79, early evening

[awakenerd]

Thanks.

And for the record if you hadn't stabbed me I might have tackled you, so feel about that how you want.

Re: Day 79, early evening

[crossmyheartandhope]

...

Anyway, uh. That's all I came for. S-so.

Re: Day 79, early evening

[awakenerd]

...Hurricane. If you want to yell or something I'm all ears.