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Who: maybe YOU?
Where: the hotel
When: Day 78, evening/night

[Sure, we've got plenty of unit posts, but what about everything that doesn't fit into one of those? Feel like making yourself a snack? Want to have an emotional outburst in the lobby?

Mingle away, folks.]

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[ mmmmmmmuch later at night probably, it's fine right since Anubis is a huge nerd so he's probably a night owl right, anyways. freshly showered and with new clothes because retail therapy, Loki wanders back into the dorms from wherever somewhere who knows. his original idea was just slip right into his room and sleep everything off but... he backs up a couple steps when he sees Anubis' door is cracked open.


just. peaks in and. ]


Woah.

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[he is, in fact, a night owl.]

Ah... Loki-san. It looks like my upgrade went through.

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... cool.... [ as he wanders in without really thinking, just looking around the room. touching a hanging potted plant without permission. ]

I'm kind of jealous. I've never really thought about it before, but maybe I could get an upgrade too.

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You could. It took me a while to be okay spending the points on myself, but... I wanted somewhere I felt like I belonged.

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[ ......... noted. ]

I don't see why you can't spend points on yourself. You earned them, didn't you?

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Yeah, but... it's the only time I've ever spent so much on myself at once. And now so much time has passed since then... to suddenly be reminded of what I was thinking at the time is. Well. It's weird.

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.... so? What were you thinking at the time? [ as he looks around the room again, as if to try to discern that for himself just from the surroundings ]

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[he's quiet for a long moment.]

... mostly that sensitIV felt a lot more like "home."

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[ ....

aaaaaaaaaaaaa. ]

Yeah? ... to be honest, this place is the closest I have to a home still.

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I don't have anywhere that feels more like home. But... I guess I don't know what "sensitIV" is anymore.

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............ I've been thinking about that. [ admits, softly. well.. ]

I was desperate for somewhere to belong, so I kind of forced the idea of us being a family. But we've grown distant, haven't we.

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Yes, we have. More and more.

[like he's just stating a fact, which. well.]

i... i thought it was your turn i am so sorry

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[ he doesn't actually know what to say to that. they have, yes. there's no getting around it... and an apology feels cheap somehow. ]

.... you weren't at the game, were you? [ surely this is a safer topic. ]

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I was.

That’s part of why I can’t stop thinking about all this.

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[ starts a bit.

... he. ]

I didn't see you. [ .. wait, ] What happened? [ concern tinging his voice ]

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It was only two rounds, and I wasn't hurt much. I mean, I spent the whole second round hiding in a hole with Cobalt-san and Eclipse-san. And the first round was-- it was just... depressing.

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[ .... honestly that isn't much to go on but. at least. he's relieved. ]

I'm glad you didn't get hurt.

... if I had seen you, I would have- I mean, ...

[ no. ] Maybe it's better that we hadn't met, if you didn't get too hurt.

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[... sighs.]

Nine tried to force me to fight. He was afraid that otherwise I'd just let myself be killed without even trying to-- to defend myself and be punished, which was stupid. And then he got himself killed, which is even stupider. But he knows he was wrong, and he apologized, which is... something... but still, seeing him die...

[he trails off.]

Between that and people being scared of me for being a member of sensitIV, even when I was offering to help, I couldn't... there was nothing I could do about all the violence, and I hate it. I don't know. Maybe if we'd met, I could have at least... healed someone. Stopped a fight. Maybe not.

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[ hhhe winces. and glances back up at Anubis for a moment, ]

Someone was afraid of you? [ his tone is that of disbelief. he can't imagine anyone being afraid of Anubis. ]

... who... [ wait. actually. ] ... was it someone from Zrael? Or Avante?

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[blinks...]

Avante and HSS. Nemesis-san and Hurricane-san. When I woke up, Nemesis-san was screaming... but they wouldn't even lower their weapons until I left the areas.

50000 years later i'm sorry

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...ah…. those two-- [ he starts as if to say something else, then stops immediately. lingering on silence… ]

In trying to protect Nya, I killed Hurricane. ... and Nya killed Nemesis in self defense. He shot at her, and the rest happened like a blur. ... it was my fault for trying to rely on him in the first place.

After that... it went downhill from there.

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[takes a moment to digest this.]

I think... Nya-san would be sad to hear you say something like that. But... they attacked you two--?

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...... there's not a whole lot of room for communication when everyone is scared and fighting for their lives.

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...

A misunderstanding.