In a place like this a lot of people think that way. We have to. Wanting to protect yourself and your unit is only natural. And you take that responsibility on your shoulders more than most.

People trust you and you feel unworthy of that, but you wish you weren't. Again, not a bad thing.

I think about it, too. Not that exactly, but how easily I can manipulate people, wondering if I ever really turn it off or just convince myself that I have. Sometimes it can be useful and even fun, sometimes it's awful, sometimes both at once.